"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Friday, November 02, 2012, 11/02/2012 01:48:00 AM
the world's probably asleep. its going to be one of those nights, i had too much caffeine - 3 mochas in a day, all in the name of work. what a bad move and now i'm paying for it where i listen to emotional songs and think about my life.i mean what can one do at this time, i am not seeing anybody to call someone up for a late night booty call, TV shows don't have good shows, my friends whom i want to talk to are asleep so i decided to turn to my dormant blog that nobody reads but strangely my pageviews do show visitors so HELLO! WELCOME!
i took time to re-read my old blog posts, they had so much passion, so much life, everything i wrote was descriptive, interesting and funny. now my posts are just repetitive, like a monologue. i think even a monologue has that much life. don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining, just seeking that spark. strange how we are never satisfied with our lives, never content with what we have, always want more more and more.
am i too lazy or just pure nonchalant on what's happening? is it an age thing? or rather social media don't work as well for me - i'm not interested to post everything on facebook, i don't have a twitter account, i've cut down on instagram, so what exactly is trending now? what irony since my next job requires me to know about social media and the world.
i've recently got offered a job in a marketing / pr company which i'm contemplating to take up. however the hesitation kicks in since i've been on my own since July - what glorious 5 months it has been, doing your own thing, earning your own keep (5 figure sum), overseas holidays every month, what's there not to like? sure, the practicality of no stable income, no cpf kicks in, but honestly, one of the best "vacations", it could really be enjoyable.
i just want to take this chance to thank Gabriel for the chance, his help when i needed to get out of K*******, however the collaboration couldn't work out, different working styles - which means it's always true that friends / spouses cant work together or it takes sheer determination and grit to get through that. Elmer's awesome at 360 too, however being freelance or your own boss means you have to actively find business, and right now, our clientele is not so big and there are still chances for me to learn in the trade for me to come out to be in the trade. sounds legit?
deep inside, i'm going to take the job up which means being in the rat race once more, the endless complaints. maybe there will be, there won't be. since i had 5 months to find myself, i have nothing to complain, my friends can vouch, i did look happier, much calmer. but it also gave me chance to work harder since the money coming in is actually tangible and faster too. but i'm sure there's no free lunch so there's always going to be a catch somewhere.
ha ha and i've set-up my own company - punchbowl. im still trying to figure out how this is all going to be like, there will be chances for punchbowl to shine, just waiting for the right op.
i'll live, i've survived, i'm sure i can again. and i think i'm going to be okay with challenges. that's what life is about. cycle after cycle.
“I am both happy and sad at the same time, and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
11/02/2012 12:20:00 AM
“It's much easier to not know things sometimes. Things change and
friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody. I wanted to laugh. Or
maybe get mad. Or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was, especially
me. I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own
life and than make the choice to share it with other people. You can't
just sit their and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that
counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things. I'm going to do
what I want to do. I'm going to be who I really am. And I'm going to
figure out what that is. And we could all sit around and wonder and feel
bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or
didn't do or what they didn't know. I don't know. I guess there could
always be someone to blame. It's just different. Maybe it's good to put
things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective
is to really be there. Because it's okay to feel things. I was really
there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower