"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007, 4/25/2007 02:44:00 PM
it's ok if you don't understand the situation, at least try to sympathise or try to give encouraging comments.don't give like
"i thought you like it what"
"i thought you're coping fine"
"i thought you enjoy it so much"
cheebye. one more time i hear "i thought", i think i am just gonna piss right off.
i want your empathy and your listening ears, i don't want comments. i can always reflect myself on it.
what the fuck is wrong with the world.
i would trade my soul for sleep.
Sunday, April 22, 2007, 4/22/2007 05:59:00 PM
if i haven't been talking to any of you, i do apologize because i haven't really got time. w-o-r-k.
especially with the party coming up on 2nd may, it's only one way to madness and hell.
one of my good friend's mom just passed away and i feel her pain. i am really sorry to hear it, really really sorry. it made me realize that life is really short and sudden, especially you just have to spend more time with your family.
fyi and i'm quite ashamed to admit, i dont really see/talk to my parents during the weekdays and that's pathetic. -.-
but you guys also know that regardless of what, i'm always here for you 24/7.
shakedown 1979
cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and I should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and I don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust I guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in the store
morphine city slippin' dues down to see
that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go
beneath the sound of hope
justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made
i know you better than you fake it to see
that we don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust I guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
the street heats the urgency of now
as you see there's no one around
smashing pumpkins - 1979
Thursday, April 12, 2007, 4/12/2007 01:40:00 AM
i am thankful for friends who empathise. very very thankful. :)i also don't mean to name drop a lot in my munich entry. sorry for that.
feeling very smashing pumpkins.
Sunday, April 08, 2007, 4/08/2007 05:57:00 PM
he's just so adorable.
i dont know whether is me but the more i stare at his name, it doesn't look like english. hmm. or is it because i only had 6 hours of sleep prior and had to wake up early to sweep grave.
and i blogged for 4 hours yesterday, not 2. i would like to apologize for those who read thinking that you can get a real deal about MUNICH but instead you get a whole load of my kiddish writings. i would like to ensure you that MUNICH is a beautiful place, you can skip the writings and go straight to the picture at the end. ha ha.
ok i'm very tired and there is ugly betty tonight. i can't wait.
k.o
Saturday, April 07, 2007, 4/07/2007 10:36:00 PM
the hiatus has been good, in fact it's so good that i hate my life a little less. i'm sure it also included the little work i had last week. nevertheless, i'm always prepared to handle any shitniz because i set myself so low that i'm almost touching the ground.like those 1st floor jump, u won't die those kind.
MUNICH, GERMANY
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Munich <-- this is wikipedia's version.
http://ode-to-me.blogspot.com <-- this is my version. ok very long entry. dont say i never say. pun intended. and i'm going to type in a way that i wrote in a diary when i was 12.
dear diary,
i'm kidding.
nevertheless, here it goes.
short intro of how my trip came about: lilin had to go to munich for a reshoot for her german-singaporean telemovie. she needed a chaperone so yeap. please take note that i wasn't her manager this time because i know nuts about this movie and tts why i couldn't like i was in charge. i was pretty much there to assist her and collect the money. imagine when my boss asked me "jas, do u want to go munich, germany?". "do chickens lay eggs?" hell yeah.
oh. exactly 1 week before the trip, i went to work everyday, going
1) "omg omg omg omg lilin"
2) "omg omg omg omg what if my hotel room haunted"
3) "omg omg omg omg lilin"
as u can see the exact point of my stress.
29th Mar 07 - midnight
Of course Lilin came from Dance Floor. sidetrack: does anybody even watch that show?
SQ Business class is top notch, from the friendly stewardesses to the seats to the food. One thing short of perfection was that the aircon leaked at the window seats. so i guess the people paying for them got OWNED. ha ha. lilin and i didn't sit together, so imagine my gratefulness. i had middle seat of all middle seats so i was stuck with one snoring and the other blowing his nose loudly. thank goodness it happened periodically.
everybody in business class wore the "brightest" colors, ranging from black, brown, gray and navy. everybody seemed to be a middle aged caucasian and one thing they can't be without: their blackberries. i didnt know it was a must have, if not i could have borrow my dad's O2. at least i could have looked professional. er, with my red jacket, jeans and sneakers. sure. -snorts- anyway i am who i am.
i was tryin my damn hardest not to gawk at everything business class. of course i got stared at for being young, asian and female. but hey, all expenses paid, who am i to complain.
so it's singapore to frankfurt. frankfurt to munich.
frankfurt airport will get no thumbs up from me not because it's big but because it's big and messy. it's from one far gate to another and we had to rush to catch our flight. did i mention that the german customs took my 100ml mosturiser because it had passed the limit. apparently no liquids above 75ml is allowed, including water. we supposedly also had enough time to ask for seats back home on 30th mar. (ps: we were slated to fly back on 31st mar). we were then put on waiting list for SQ.
29th Mar 07
We had to go straight to the location for the shoot the moment we touched down. It was at a private residence at this huge house. It looked pretty all right from the outside BUT on the inside, it had a lot of rooms. A LOT. I think bout 10? And our holding area was on the 3rd floor, climbed up and down like siao can. zhu houren and his manager, Mei were also there. While they were shooting, i flexed my minor PR muscles, smiled a lot and observed a lot. zhu houren is very nice, he's so down to earth like a dad. and guess what, he's hainanese. bond bond.
germans are very nice people. or maybe the ones i met because they are very professional. but if they are, how come still need re-shoot leh. nevertheless, they are very very nice people. anyway, lunch was great.
and after 6 hours of shooting, it was done and we were escorted back to the hotel.
Hotel Excelsior(4 stars, 1st class) is one of the most amazing hotels i stayed in. Or is it the only 4 star hotel. anyway, the reception greets you by your name and when you check in, the tv actually flashes your name. very warm welcome leh, i like.
btw, dinner was with mei, lian huay(mediacorp's artiste management head) and jonathan (zhu houren's son). the other 2 tagged along for the trip, not work. lilin slept through-out so my first dinner was spent eating seafood which comprised of a fish burger and fries. damn fresh la everything. so they retired for the night (like only 8.30pm la tt time -.-) and i didnt feel like sleeping so i went to the internet cafe lounge across my hotel. their keyboard is so different from ours.
let's play spot the difference.I had MTV - only english speaking channel on all night as i slept ALONE. So there were times when I would wake up and just channel surf. i came across this sports channel that screens topless women ads. "anika - sms 77788 -moan moan moan-". in addition, they have this 3 min clip where they feature this scantily-clad woman who drives around in this huge suv who will get stuck in the mud/ice. the production crew will then tap on her desperation for help. IT'S SO A MALE CHAUVINIST PIG STY. (style. sty. geddit)
europeans are so open. i like.
30th Mar 07
Lilin and I had breakfast together. Lilin and I shopped together. I never thought I could write the 2 sentences together in my entire life. Don't get me wrong, i am not boasting. I am just in awe, like omg omg omg, ok imagine my face. there you go, that's what i meant.
My perception of her took a 180 deg turn. i dont know whether it's because we were overseas or in a holiday mood but she's not...........nasty. in fact she's nice, very nice and very friendly. small talk were made naturally, basically it's like -gasp- female bonding. we just walked and walked, into Marienplatz, into offbeaten paths. it's more like i die die wanted to see this and she just followed me. i thought she's pretty impressed at my knowledge of Munich. please, i spent 1 week reading all bout Munich, what do you think. i also can count 0 to 10 in german. -.- she bought chocolates to share, she bought me turkish food, she recounted tales of her and allan (did i ever mention ALLAN IS SO HOT.) travelling. we conversed in mandarin (I KNOW), she saved me from being knocked down by a tram, we bought bags together etc. for an exhaustive list of things that we did, you can message me. :)
OMG, LILIN IS SO NICE.
i haven't really spoken to her since then so er ya.
anyway she was determined to go back on 30th Mar so prior to our shopping trip, i actually made arrangements for transport to airport and her flight back home. she seemed actually concerned that i had to travel back to the hotel myself because i chose to stay on. i ensured her i would be fine so i sent her in and i took the subway back. ALL BY MYSELF, it was such an exhilarating experience. of course i did ask people la. -.- but the trip itself, the train whizzed past the countryside and the grittier side of town. i was tryin my best not to gawk at everything.
dinner was spent with mei, lian huay and jonathan again. this time, they chose a rowdy restaurant in town. apparently there was a game going on.
game + german fans + smoke + food + booze = A LOT OF THINGS GOING ON and i wasn't really friendly. i'm not a crowd person and while going around the restaurant, lookin for seats, i lost sight of them and had to sms to enquire.
anyhow, we got seats right beside this group of american kids (can hear accent). our group ordered beer and do u know that their beer was so fresh, i was drinking it like water and guess what, i didn't know german dark beer = 2 and a half cans of beer. and you know how beer makes my IQ drop it like it's hot. so within 15 mins, i was tipsy and could fall flat any moment. i couldn't even enjoy my pork knuckles thoroughly, all i can recall is that it was very tender.
and suddenly. this guy next to me got very close and turned and started a conversation. i was like huh and continued the convo. soon, their group joined our group and we were all cheers-ing. by then, i couldn't really focus and all i remembered was that they were from colorado, usa, snowboarders, one night in munich, club hopping, saying that we speak really good english -.-, all very young with the eldest at 23, the guy next to me called morgan and he was flirting and he had really blue eyes. we then left (i left with regrets, ha ha) and i almost forgot my stuff but mei was there to help. of course, she couldn't help chiding that i got charmed by morgan. ha ha ha ha. i was amused and couldn't walk straight, that's all.
it's all the beer's doing. :)
31st Mar 07
Mei and Lian Huay left for Prague in the morning so it's only Jonathan and me left. We were slated to leave on the same day but different timings and different air flights. so we basically hanged out together. he looks like paul dano from little miss sunshine, only 18, has a gf and share the same music taste together! he's cool.
so basically, i went on a shoppin hunt, buying things like i didnt get the day before. oh, we ate turkish food, massive doner sandwich and drink unfizzy coke. it's really good.
besides going to the same places twice, i actually got to travel a little far and went to explore this gothic catholic church. i came across maximillianstrauss where they have all the freaking rich brands in the world. tods, gucci, cartier, louis vuitton, it's like you can have an orgasm if you have all the money in the world. do you know cartier got their own doorman can!? pls. paragon can shove its own ass.
i showed johnathan how to travel to the airport in style. in a subway. aiyah fun wad. save money also.
Business class in Lufthansa Airline is bad. so bad that i will not want to board it again. I can be the top notch air stewardess there can, if you want to compare the size of them. the service not very good, and the toliet can be out of order can. knn.
and i also found out that lilin's luggage got lost. i mean wtf is lufthansa doing?! but eventually she got it back. i know it's not my fault but i felt responsible in a way what if i went back with her, would it have happened? hmm. oh well, i arrived back in singapore with signs of not sleeping well on the plane, feeling hot and oily hair.
neverthless, everything was amazing. i didn't get to spend a single cent at all cus everything is paid and provided for. guess what, people actually commented i looked happier. haha, free stuff, cannot bluff.
please go munich, at least once.
i can't believe i took 2 hours to blog this.