"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
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Adeline
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Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
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Spanky
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ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
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Saturday, March 29, 2008, 3/29/2008 10:53:00 PM
i have come to terms that i cannot and am not able to go back to the past, as much as i want to, it's impossible. actually i can, only if i were to sacrifice my pride and dignity. but if based on that kind of comfort zone that i'm seeking then never mind la. don't get me wrong. my mind will always be on the quitting side. i'm just waiting patiently for the right kind of job, not perfect but the one that will make me sit up and go maybe i can really be good at this. the one that will revive your job passion.
so i am going to stick with where i am for now. if these 2 months plus taught me anything, it definitely made me smarter and see things in a different perspective on how advertising works. i say, everyday is a learning process, learn fast and try not to fuck the same thing up twice. HOWEVER, all rubber bands/sponges snap/rot one day so you'll never know.
as i live by these phrases : 1) same shit different day
2) quit or quit complaining
talking to understanding friends really help. they provide you with inspirations and different perspectives that i admit i can't see on my point of view sometimes. eg: shit hits the fan, all we want to do is to run away. but after a while, we realized the shit won't drop off unless you clean it up. so after everything, you'll get a cleaner and fresher, er, breath of air! can't run away so far after all.
i know i know that i keep going on about work. from now on, i am goin to try my best to balance my life because if i were to focus everything on work, if work one day fails me, what am i to do? it's like a marriage, u focus everything on ur husband, what happens if ur husband leaves you.
god, i have great friends. or is it my mind just beginning to open up?
anyway moving on, i went to sweep tomb with my maternal side family today. i think such occasions are essential because they just tighten the bond. i mean after reading the muar highway crash, it just struck me on how important family really is. that baby is damn lucky, i think she must buy toto or 4D forever.
friends are important and i would like to say thank you to all my friends who are always there for me. i know i am not the perfect friend but i would really like to be there when you need me. if you dont need me, nvm also can call me k.
and a special shout out to super trooper because i'm humbled by her, after all she's been through with her family and husband, i would really like her to be happy.
this post is like so er soft and feminine and so sec sch poly kind. i think the sun got to me today. oh and i have been listening to a lot of Marit Larsen (ex-M2M), Hanson and Jesse Mccartney.
it's ok, this phase will fade, be cool.
Friday, March 21, 2008, 3/21/2008 11:41:00 AM
i am not a designer but i understand what they are going through. i think they should need to add in + account exec also.
that's right. i am an account executive (AE) in an advertising agency, i am also known as a suit because i represent the face of the agency. but what i think they forgot to add is that AE is the the shittiest job in history, having to deal with shitheads from bosses, clients and designers.
i always seem to have the knack of taking the top 10 worst jobs. i know i should be lucky at least i have a job but i am not really feeling the gratefulness now. BR THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU SO PLEASE DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF.
if i can get through one day without boss/client fucking my day up, it's when i'll be damn happy but i am also aware that i can't afford to be so happy because next day might be a worse day, please refer to my profile page quote for reference. it's true, everyday sucks.
isn't it funny that i cc my boss in everything i do and yet when shit hits the fan, he'll hit the shit and the fan too. dude, don't u read your email? don't talk about having faith in what i can do, but what i can't do, you'll flip. where's the god-damn guidance. i am only 2 months going to 3 months old, i dont expect to be babyfed but at least show me where the mother fucking food is. you have no idea how much i learnt durin these times, the true ugly side of advertising. but then i also wonder is it only my company, my management or the environment. i used to brag that i got good communication skills that i can possibly handle anyone but i was so wrong that i want to stab myself in the mouth can.
it's not easy dealing with the creative team who's quite persistent that the ideas they generated are good. it's not easy dealing with clients who twist words and tell vicious lies. clients are 2 faced people, they say this but they meant that and when we confront them, they'll violently deny, hopin to save their poor little asses.
as i say and i stand true, my client will burn in hell.
then i'll think fuck, being an artiste manager isn't so bad after all. sure tensions are bound to happen but i can solve the issue with tim and irene and yet we are all cool now so i don't see what's the difficulty right in handling designers.
WRONG.
much worse i think. no offence to my designer friends out there i mean u guys are my BUDDIES, not people i work with. and oh, i can come across as overbearing and pushy but i guess it's just the way i talk. so each time when i talk to someone CREATIVE, i need to put on this face that please i need your help and i'll be forever in debt. i have to, it's the only that things will work. you can never offend your creative if not being a suit, who will do the designing? and if they don't do, guess who's gonna get fucked in front of client? hey hey no prizes for guessing.
you may say that i'm bitter which is true. but talk bout everyday demoralization. everyday i go to work, thinking hey what shit is gonna be here for me today. i stopped having expectations or i stopped being happy when i go to work simply because there's no point.
but in this huge mass of disappointment and bitterness i'm having, this little part of the brain will generate these hopes by telling me you are strong enough, you can survive other shit, what's this and blah blah what doesn't kill me will make me stronger.
i say. what doesn't kill me will make me stranger.
i dont know what to do anymore, if in marketing, i dont have enough passion to represent a brand. or PR, how much talk must i talk. now that i have taste of advertising, it's gonna be good luck and good bye forever. i don't want people to keep saying oh you young people, you can't take hardship. but really how much hardship can one take. tolerance level is like a rubber band, it stretches but one day it'll all snap. and fuck that i can take hardship and i can take hard work. i just can't stand when people don't understand their situation first before kicking up a fuss or when i feel like i'm undervalued or underappreciated.
so what am i waiting for you may ask? i don't know how to quit, i dont know how to say fuck that, i'm leaving. or how to leave in the midddle of a campaign. i guess in a sad way, i can't just leave something hanging. but then again, the company will survive still right.
everyday is a war battle and it's either us or the client gets bloodied. it's not a very good friday i guess.