"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Sunday, August 31, 2003, 8/31/2003 03:26:00 PM
update soon.Sunday, August 24, 2003, 8/24/2003 04:00:00 PM
Which pattern am I?
What Pattern Are You?
8/24/2003 02:37:00 PM
My concert is like ..... wo
I am currently sitting at my table with Dads laptop in hand. Beautiful weather outside with radio blasting Rick Deyes Weekly Top 40.
Went to Z-POP concert yesterday night. Was a free concert with acts like Z Chen, Seven, Tension, Evonne Hsu etc. Met Peiwen, Ailian, ZJ, The Sinis and Cailing at City Hall. I was late for a damn 40 mins. It was raining damn heavily then my dad was like speeding already but still. I thought the concert might be cancelled or postponed becuz of the rain but phew it went on. We walked to the Supreme Court for shelter at first but as the concert started, the rain stopped. We kept on squeezing in front to get a good view but bloody hell tall people had all the luck, I couldnt see properly. Thank goodness for screens all over.
1st act was Ping-Pong, local act. We were like grooving then they went on for 3 songs continuously, we got bored. I know, Singaporeans dont support local acts but hey, I did try my best to appreciate. After that, the concert went into full force. Estimated around 20 000 people. Focus: FREE. The downpoint was that we were standing in a not so -HIGH- area, like people were not into cheering. I hate Singapore audiences esp those who go to concerts, gigs and they don cheer or groove. THEY FUCKING JUST STAND AND WATCH. Might as well go to the movies. Standing like fucking dummies. I hate audiences like that. Bursting eardrums were our priorities as we grooved and cheered very loudly.
My fav acts gotta be Z-Chen and Tension. Man, their R n B grooves are so slick. I know I dont like Chinese songs but I went to the concert for the atmosphere. I did enjoy a little though. Z-Chen sang acapella for his hit May I love you. The crowd went wild. Hes so adorable. Heheh. Crazy me. Then we sang along and waved our hands in the air. Thank goodness the concert was only for 18 and above. No crazy teenage fans. The air was cooling but a little humid. We were in a mosh pit. Explained it.
Tension came out almost at the end after Evonne Hsu who came in a horrible blue shirt. Sheesh. Almost all girls went wild when Tension came out. They are hot and slicked with their grooves. We were almost high at that point. After Tension act, Peiwen, Ailian and me left. Ailian wasnt feeling too well so we headed back home. We got thirsty. The drinks there cost a freaking 2 bucks for just a cup. WTH. I am gonna set up a counter outside a gig venue selling drinks too. 2 bucks for a cup. Money making man.
Conclusion: Concert 6.5/10 Atmosphere 6/10 (bloody audiences at where we were standing). I think I lost a few grams standing and cheering.
Tough week next. Technopreneurship presentation and lab tests. Week after is semester break. Then tada Mid Semester Tests. -I am so looking forward-
Sidetrack:
My BBC lab teacher has this way of making me feel stupid. I ABSOLUTELY DETEST THAT. I hate people who think they are so fucking smart and can just look down on people. People think that I laugh and be cheerful all the time doesnt mean I am dumb. Dont judge me. Most important, dont belittle me.
Sand, you re a nice person when you are alone with me. Put one person with us and youll act all bitchy and cute. That is irritating. Why?
Sometimes I think you have way too much air in ur head.
Go get a vacuum cleaner.
Monday, August 18, 2003, 8/18/2003 02:31:00 PM
Updates
Updates updates updates. Theres so much school stuff nowadays.
Homework/Worry 1. Have to do specifications for Final year Project (affectionately known as FyP) to be handed in this week. Sometimes I donno why Calvin(my fyp supervisor) wants the specs so desperately. Our group already gets the idea on what the whole project is about but could somebody explain the desperation.(Sidetrack: Our fyp is to retrieve the stock market data system u know like those teletext updates. Ya. Thats right. Sigh) I have to base on the excel interface and type out each feature. Fyp is stressful in a way that if I dont accomplish something about it one day, the burden is there. And our deadline is March. Great.
Homework/Worry 2. Have to do MMSP and BBC tutorial. Seems little but no. The answers are lengthy, wordy and I dont understand what are they saying, let alone explain to others. I have to present BBC Qn 3 on Wed.
Homework/Worry 3. I have to think of the introduction that our group is gonna put on the questionnaire. Our technopreneurship group decided on this device called Tank Tapper Aquarium where it supposedly allows you to change ur aquarium water easily. No fuss. Ya right. So have to do questionnaire, print, give people to answer and get ready for presentation on Week 8. My role in the group when presentation: Question and Answer. I wont be looking forward because my class tends to ask questions that you and I dont like to answer. Seriously.
Homework/Worry 4. Lab tests are coming in week 8.. and I totally suck in my BBC and MMSP labs.. I attend class religiously every week but I dont understand a word they are saying. My troubles start from Exp 3 onwards. I have been staying back and going for Free Access whenever I can to practice. Hope I pass.
Homework/Worry 5 I gotta do my job resume and job applicationg letter for CSW.
I will get to my homework/worries eventually but right now, I am not worried. Weird u think? I gotta work hard.
This morning, I met Sha and Wayne for BBC Free Access lab practice. We happily completed Lab 2 but when came Lab 3, 5 and 6… We couldnt achieve what was written on the paper then we got bored. Tired. Disappointed. Things got normal between all of us as that, I am extremely glad. Then Nurul came up and Sha and I were like uh cuz we didnt ask her for we were afraid that she might bring Bob so nah
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Nurul,
I know u seemed a little disappointed that we didnt call you for free access but I was afraid that you might bring Bob, you know right? Sorry
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I think my homework is calling me.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003, 8/13/2003 04:28:00 PM
After another
Problems between me and Wayne are finally solved. You have no idea how ecstastic I am. It's like we finally talked things out, how he made me felt for the past month(miserable). He called me first haha. So he wanted my help in his studies and from then we talked and talked. It's so good to be talking to him again, like things are finally normal between us. He even admitted that we have a weird FRIENDSHIP, not relationship. We can't talk properly in real life but over the phone, we are like buddies. Funny. but that' the way things work between us. I can't take his jokes, he can't take my rebuttals, in real life i mean. But hey who cares. We are normal!!! wuhoo
Nowadays things dont look that bright again. I find that when one bad thing happens, another just keeps rolling in.. I think we all have a problem with TRUST. Sigh. I really hope things will work out. Really.
~I'll make it through the rainy days
I'll be the one who stands here longer than the rest
When my landscape changes, re-arranges
I'll be stronger than I've ever been~
Sunday, August 10, 2003, 8/10/2003 10:55:00 PM
Fun
Went out with Zhoujing(ZJ) today. Destination: All over Orchard.
First, we went to Mos Burger Taka and ZJ ate her lunch.From there, I let out how I've been feeling for the past month=MIserable shit. I really did feel better after but somehow, no matter how much I opened up there's this burden in my heart. Why? Because the problem about me and Wayne is not solved. However, that's another story for another day. We windowed shopped mostly. (OOh, just a little info, I bought this wonderful EMILy THE STRANGE notebook yesterday at Kinokuiya. It's $13.15 only!!! I like Emily the strange character a lot. Dark cynical morbid. I like. )
So 2 of us walked and talked. We went to Heeren also.. checked out wallets then walked again all the way to Far East Plaza to check out pencil cases as ZJ starts a brand new term at NUS. I find out that girls in Sg are so norm, they like to follow trends. A lot. Take the example of the case of the spagetti straps and Levi's jeans type of girl, they are everywhere. I am not jealous of them. Just so unoriginal, I guess. Uh, no cute guys so far.
And we walked. As we approached CK Tang, there's this guy who approaches us. And guess what, he didnt want our tel nums. He wanted to trim our eyebrows. wth. Actually, I walked past him then when ZJ walked past him and he halted her. And he goes on how her eyebrows are so messy blah blah.. uh due to cash flow, we rejected.
But ZJ was like "huh my eyebrows very messy meh" and kept going "really?" so foot itchy, we decided to walk back to that guy. lol a bit stupid but then what to do. The guy was like eh i approached u right and we were like uh yea. A bit embaressed but for the sake of beauty.
So this guy did ZJ's eyebrows and she said it was painful. Hey i taught the guy a new word! I taught him the word "sheesh". hahahahaha at first he was like huh? I explained to him blah blah so he kept on sheeshing throughout trimming ZJ eyebrows. After it was all done and 10 bucks paid. ZJ started to complain that not only it hurts but the guy's saliva kept on coming out whenever he said SHEESH!! ahhahahaha lol. Then she also said the guy's hands were all sweaty and she felt dirty. I kept on laughing and laughing. Nah, I didnt trim. My eyebrows are in shape, thank u very much.
Dinner at Marche. Wah.. ate pasta(sidetrack: the guy cookin was cute), pizza and rosti. Then went to take neoprints at Heeren.It's been a long time since I took them. Keep taking, taking and laughing, laughing. We also took pics with her hp. It was a totally fun outing and I did enjoy myself. Wuhoo!!! Thanks, pal
~He said life's so hard to move in sometimes
When it feels like I'm in the line
And no one even cares to ask me why I feel this way~
Wednesday, August 06, 2003, 8/06/2003 05:12:00 PM
Mild and Dandy
Today was just mild and dandy. No earth shattering things happened. Zilch. Sandy's getting better now, I supposed. She trys to be sarcastic to me but then I just pretended not to hear it. Cmon, her "sarcastic" jokes dont even get to me, they practically bounce right off. Every Wed my fyp team, Nurul, Aisha aka Sha and me will meet our supervisor at project lab to discuss our final year project. I can't make it today because I had bbc tutorial. Great, now BBC tut changed to wed how to meet? sigh i guess i must compromise.
Nurul broke down today. Was kinda surprised because she looks like the type that will be strong no matter what. I was wrong. Everybody's bound to be vunerable someday. I didnt see her but I heard from Sha. She have family problems too so i guess it accumulates to her and man, the dam couldn't take it any longer. OUt came the tears. But i believe it's good to sometimes cry. LET ALL the Negative FEELINGS out. I do sometimes when I just can't take any longer and nobody understands.
I read my horoscope Cancer in YOU mag today and it said August will be a good month for me. Yeah right.
I miss Wayne. Sigh.
Monday, August 04, 2003, 8/04/2003 03:14:00 PM
First
I used to have an opendiary on www.freeopendiary.com, but then I got sick of having this mentality "ooh are people leaving notes" because it added pressure and I had to check almost everytime.Sick of it. So here I am with a new diary this time on Blogger. I will not succumb to that pressure again.
Right now, I am so on to Maroon 5. Their songs are way cool, go check them out.
I couldnt think of anything to write now, brain freeze.