"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in

Six billion of us walking the planet.
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.

you can say something

you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan

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    Wednesday, August 26, 2009, 8/26/2009 10:47:00 PM

    somebody out there wrote this great list and i had to share. tell me which one(s) spoke to you!

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    1. There is a great need for sarcasm font.

    2. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

    3. Bad decisions make good stories.

    4. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

    5. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

    6. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.

    7. The letters T and G are very close to each other on a keyboard. This recently became all too apparent to me and consequently I will never be ending a work email with the phrase "Regards" again

    8. A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

    9. Was learning cursive really necessary?

    10. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

    11. Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.

    12. Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart", all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

    13. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

    14. Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using 'as in' examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss's last name to an attorney and said "Yes that's G as in...(10 second lapse)..ummm...Goonies"

    15. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

    16. While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.

    17. MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

    18. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

    19. I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.

    20. Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if I do!

    21. If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.

    22. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? I know my name, I know where I'm from, this shouldn't be a problem....

    23. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

    24. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't want to have to restart my collection.

    25. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

    26. 'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

    27. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

    28. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

    29. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

    30. Why is a school zone 15 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles...

    31. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

    32. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

    33. It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

    34. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

    35. I think that if, years down the road when I'm trying to have a kid, I find out that I'm sterile, most of my disappointment will stem from the fact that I was not aware of my condition in college.



    get some toothcutenessoverload at: http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com




    Tuesday, August 25, 2009, 8/25/2009 01:06:00 PM

    welcome to my newest guilty pleasure - america's best dance crew:



    i iz feel like dancing.




    Sunday, August 23, 2009, 8/23/2009 01:52:00 AM



    SOMEBODY GET ME THIS T-SHIRT ALREADY!




    Thursday, August 20, 2009, 8/20/2009 10:39:00 PM


    Relator - Pete Yorn & Scarlett Johansson

    this song is so happy! it's my new ringtone and it has my lesbian fantasy in it!

    WHAT'S THERE NOT TO LIKE.




    8/20/2009 06:25:00 PM

    i love the story below. it's incredibly sexy and i can imagine on how i would try it out. :)

    Money, it turned out, was exactly like sex, you thought of nothing else if you didn't have it and thought of other things if you did.”

    and i don't have both money and sex.




    8/20/2009 06:21:00 PM

    my sexy game

    “i have 3 flavors for you to guess today.”
    that girly grin. the slender fingers with the peeling.
    carefully shielding the label of an ice cream.

    playfully concealing a dab in her mouth, her fingers wiping the excess from her lips.
    “guess this.”
    pressed her lips against mine, taunting tongues.
    “vanilla, that was an easy one.” could have lied just so we can play some more.
    the icy feeling lingered on.

    “how about this one.” this time quicker to hide. her flirtier eyes.
    her mouth parted bigger this time.
    something more of a solid. my mind far from a reckoning.
    hunger. desire. undone passion that was set on cold.
    she retreated, come-hither accompanying.
    weakened, i analyzed the left-behind.
    “blackberries.” my teeth gave alittle grind somemore.
    “ummm…” bunched up her features and shook her pretty little head.
    like a newfound revelation, “blackcurrent!”
    victorious and didn’t want to win.

    “now this, you don’t have to guess. it’s chocolate.”
    she proceeded, delivered to me anyway.
    icy cold slowly losing the chill. deep. tussle. mess by fluid brown.
    never been so elevated, caught up by erotica.

    “chocolate, aphrodisiac. better than sex.”
    she licked her fingers. lowered her head, flirty eyes on the conquered.
    her hair teasing the wind. mindful about a hardening.
    i stood up, stretched. her hand inched into mine.
    in smiles, we left. i looked back at central park bench.

    credits: to someone amazingly talented (always 14 to me) and i'm very happy to know both of them, sister and brother




    8/20/2009 01:24:00 AM




    Monday, August 17, 2009, 8/17/2009 11:10:00 AM

    DR VIVIAN BALAKRISHNAN IS SO HOT.

    (i dare not put any pictures up, kenna sue by govt how.)




    Saturday, August 15, 2009, 8/15/2009 12:57:00 AM

    "It’s like I’m secretly broken, without the broken feeling. There’s just something in me that I know is misplaced, but I don’t know what it is."




    Thursday, August 13, 2009, 8/13/2009 07:49:00 PM



    because i seem to love pop and megamixes and i want to buy DJ PINK STATION 2: THE BIGGEST DANCE ANTHEMS.

    so officially gay.




    8/13/2009 12:09:00 AM

    every time i watch sweet sixteen, i secretly wish for the birthday girl to trip and fall over her dramatic entrance. seriously, where do the parents get the money to organize a huge ass scale party for a 16 year old?

    i'm secretly jealous. but cannot watch too much of that show, brain cells start to automatically deplete.

    i'm sick. i have a high fever pertaining up to 38.8 deg celsius. and because temperature's coming down, i have the slightest energy to type and tell the world my useless life. and i also have a 2 days MC which thank the mother of all gods, i love MCs. nvm i paid money to get OFF from work because taking leave is so hard. it's like trying to squeeze $10,000 from me. which apparently i don't.

    because august's a slow month, i'm actually thinking about my career (again). i know i'm a sad case. but despite being sad, i cannot stand still, like i cannot stop learning, i cannot be stagnant. just makes everything so..stale. besides, my boss ain't the greatest of all (he thinks so though), short on money, short on workers' productivity etc. so now shirley's leaving the events side, rumours have been flying that i'll be taking over which is a huge joke because apparently i also heard that my boss is not gonna let me go out of production so easily. but just one day, one day, i am going to state down my conditions. i cannot be possibly doing production and events and getting a motherfucking cheebye single pay right. oh i might also get promoted just that my pay remains. aint' life great.

    i've got offers from everywhere, to setting up own business to going back to fly. i realized i want to do marketing communications, to represent a brand, to think of ideas on how to elevate a brand despite its rigid corporate identity. at least now i know what i want, i'll work towards it. the thing is how do you get out of a 3 months' notice period? i dont know, its just gotten to a point that i realized halluejah, i'm 25. i'm supposed to be at my prime. are you happy at your age, at where you're at now?

    i'm not complaining just that this lull period got me thinking of where i wanna be, where i wanna become. "family comes first, but work gets in the way". SO I THOUGHT I WANNA SHARE WITH YOU GUYS, CANNOT ISSIT. or maybe because nothing is really happening in my life, thus the focus on career.

    i think my mom is secretly worried that i have yet to find a nice boy, have great sex with him, marry and have some kids. man. moms. so today she has some feng-shui master over to help to steer my life and i'm to put rose quartz in my room to attract attention, u know like be a greater people person.

    I SAY IF THAT ROSE QUARTZ CAN GIVE ME GREAT SEX ALL THE TIME, I SAY BRING IT ON.

    and then life will literally be a bed of condoms, i mean roses.




    Friday, August 07, 2009, 8/07/2009 01:31:00 AM

    because bradley cooper is hot, he makes up 90% reason of my choice to spend money to watch THE HANG-OVER.

    it's not as slap-stick as i would thought, it's funny, it's witty, there's a plot to follow, there's nudity, there's las vegas and there's bradley cooper. this would be probably the most useless review u ever read but i wanted to use this excuse to tell the world that:

    BRADLEY COOPER IS FOTHERMUCKING HOT, especially in a suit. excuse me, but he can hang-over me anytime.

    and also a great excuse to post my fav moments up:







    brad, u can coop me up, get drunk and so have a hang-over together.




    Monday, August 03, 2009, 8/03/2009 06:20:00 PM




    Sunday, August 02, 2009, 8/02/2009 09:01:00 PM

    to my bed whom my body loves,

    hi, it's been a while, firstly i like to apologize that i have been only spending only 5-6 hours with you each day. you do know that if possible, i would love to spend at least 12 hours with you. i see my parents 1 hour a day so i hope it makes
    you feel better. your biggest rival now is the laptop which i'm using to type this beloved entry to you. dont you worry because once i quit, the laptop will be gone. you and me forever.

    and of course you know that i have been so busy with work, working non-stop for the past week, past month, only to realize that your team has been given AN OFF DAY except me and my admin team, whom my boss presumed we don't need it because we are not doing any manual work. i'm sure helping my team with manual work, liaison with venue supplier, suppliers and client isn't much of work now isn't it. i intend to wear black on my face, my outfit and my shoes because i heard that black is always the look. is there a way to make my boss and some clients to take their brains out of their asses and put it where it should belong? because i swear, i was this close to walking away because the level of stupidity is way too much for me to take it.

    you will agree with me because it's utter stupidity where example of humans jumping on beds and i'm sure the humans won't want beds to jump on them. it's also called R-E-S-P-E-C-T. which should be earned, not given.

    i know i'll be spending more time with you since i have silently agreed to make personal changes in my life. i don't exactly know what but i know that i have to make things happen. it's like every 3 months or so, an intervention will step in then i have to re-think what i want, what i don't want. it's so bloody tiring, i wish i can sleep on you more. it's so easy to say things and not mean them, hear things and not believe them and it's a whole new different case when things start happening or happened right in front of you.

    honestly, i don't know what i have been typing above but all i want to say is that i have been taking jobs on the sideline because i love money (and i cannot lie), i hope my boss will wake up,friendships to be consistent and i dont have to take so much initiative, i want to get laid (haha), i will never date a cheater despite the irony (haha), i want to learn different things, i want to see the world, i want to get away and i just want everything to happen.

    i also want to sleep more.

    because i don't know what i'm saying anymore,
    your exhausted owner