"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Friday, December 31, 2004, 12/31/2004 07:20:00 PM
Tis the last day of 2004, thought I should say whatever I want to say
To my 4 closest friends, you each know who you are. Thank for being there with me, individually. Perhaps you all know one another, which I think is great, thank you all for listening, thank you for just going through this journey of 2004. May 2005 be good for you, you, you, and you. Cheers.
To Sylvia, we became so close this year, too bad our parents couldnt meet up. Darn. Thank you for experiencing with me the ahem nights out ya.. Please come my house one day! Thank you for sharing your life with me, I still laugh to myself each time I refer to the *fortune teller* story. Hehehehe.. And meeting Eugene after 16 years was like bam!, to think I had a minor crush. *uh.ahemNOT*
To Hari, thank you for being my pool buddy always. I am always trying to aim though, it's my shirt. I always wear the wrong shirt to play. Heh
To my OCBC colleagues, to think I was a loner for the 1st month... I swear I never knew I would have so much fun hanging around the CBD area and in the office. My first time in an admin position, no regrets perhaps. And I take back whatever I've said. :B Thank you thank you thank you. You made me grow up, opened my mind. Welcome to reality
To my existing poly friends, Ian, I know ur still alive(heh), thank you for inviting me to the party and to the VILLAGE. Indra, where the fuck are you. Wayne, I always know your alive, just that you dont show it. Heck, I admitted that I had a crush on you and I wouldnt really mind if you know because you hardly talk to me anymore.
To my family, yay let's go into 2005 together with good health, good wealth.
To all my friends, I may not contact you but rest assured I'll be there when you need me. Take care yall! Lets hang out soon!
2004 wasn't such a good year (wait, I dont remember other years),
with the death of an ex-classmate
the accident of an exclassmate(thank god she's ok now),
i met bob and got closer to nurul(i still wish he would be tortured in NS and then go to hell. nurul still can suck off for what i care)
for whatever reason, i became more clumsier. like wtf.
i still haven't grow taller or any fitter.
the tsunami!!!!!!!! have you donate?
But then, 2004 wasn't such a bad year either,
with new found friends to hang out and talk, friendship being rekindled.
friendster being invented, hello my pri sch friends
Love wasn't on my agenda. $ is.
$$ to be made, dog eat dog world
definitely more open minded
Singapore IDOL!!!!!
the place to work.
kbox
some very interesting people, places and words I've learnt, saw and been to
Would you agree if I said growing up is included? :B
Top 6 albums I owed this year (no order of merit):
1) Rooney - Rooney
2) Usher - Confessions
3) Maroon 5 - Songs about Jane
4) Alicia Keys - The Diary of Alicia Keys
5) Blue - The Best of Blue
6) Jet - Get Born
Top 10 songs I listened over and over and over and over again (no Nelly):
1) Yellowcard - Only One
2) Ashlee Simpson - La La
3) Hanson - Penny and Me
4) Gavin Degraw - Nice to Meet You Anyway / I dont want to be
5) Usher - Yeah!
6) Dexter Freebish - Leaving Town
7) Hoobastank - The Reason
8) U2 - Vertigo
9) Jojo - Leave(Get Out)
10) Rooney - If It Were Up to Me
I am not in a celebratory mood.
2005, I'll see you.
Tuesday, December 28, 2004, 12/28/2004 10:49:00 PM
It's like everything that we do in everyday life, seems so small and insignificant compared to the disaster.
I feel that now. I am counting my blessings and praying for everybody out there.
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OKAnd not to worry
'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
But it didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right'
Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands
Monday, December 27, 2004, 12/27/2004 11:50:00 PM
singing a lone song about love
i could hear it clearly
in his heart in his soul
walking by himself
hands in his pockets
thinking about reality
he hums he continues
his journey uphill
wind in his face, shoes unlaced
he turns he waves
his love came running
they embrace they rejoice
she hums she continues
their journey together
as one
12/27/2004 01:23:00 AM
Over 5,400 dead as huge earthquake triggers destruction across Asia
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories
/afp_asiapacific/view/124169/1/.html
12/27/2004 01:07:00 AM
Exchanging gifts is on everybody's mind this Christmas which explained my guilt. You see, my new colleagues each got me something and all I could do is say Thank You. Crap, I didnt get them anything cuz I wasn't expectin gifts.. still. They created a very warm atmosphere ya where there seemed to be no bad stabbing. Hmmmm. But then again, you'll never know. I like my new company and colleagues :) Had a mini celebration where you get to eat roast chicken, haagen-dazs ice cream, drink lots of wine and take photos all in one day. Of course the majority of fun went to "partying" at OCBC.
Yeap, I went to party at OCBC after my half day. Boy, it was fun fun fun. How much gossip, ice cream, wine, chocolate can one take in a day? Lots, i tell ya. :) Those times like these, very much missed. I didnt join the crowd and go woohoo it's Christmas time! For I am crowd-o-phobic.
I've always thought City Harvest church was a freakin cult and still can't believe it that my brother went to celebrate with them at the Indoor Stadium. I was pissed at him for going, was pissed that he went, was pissed that he attended. Noticed a pattern? I dont care if anyone from City Harvest read this because I dont give a flying fuck on what u people would think. Each time my brother related his experience, I'd flip the bird. Thank goodness my brother got to his senses and he thought the whole experience was crap. That's wonderful! Halleujah! I would like to do this to City Harvest with all my might
I woke up once to find my table full of ants and it was 8am already, had to rush to work!! Like crap full of shit, I wondered what was goin on. I morphed into Anti- Ant woman and grabbed Bygone and SPRAYED. God, it was like you can hear the ants going "no...." Wonderful sadist in making. But was like wtf, in the morning.. my day was burdened.
I dig into my ears to clear wax and seems like it got pushed in further. Great. Please start talking to me in loud volumes.
Mr Year 2004 is going to help usher in Mr Year 2005. Would he make it better for the world? My wishes are simple :
1) Feed the hungry
2) Stop terrorism PLEASE
3) Save the sick and poor
4) Stick a kind stick into snobs and the rich
5) my family and friends to be happy and healthy always
6) my career to prosper and become a star overnight (WHO AM I KIDDIN for the latter part)
7) A best guy friend (probably very good looking and rich and drives, if he's not gay already)
I am giving up on resolutions. I never stick to it anyway.
Sunday, December 26, 2004, 12/26/2004 11:56:00 PM
F:
Your Beauty liesin Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even yourappearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may lookinnocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the sametime. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit ofeverything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with theguys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost adifferent person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you knowexactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. Youenjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable youare.
Some ThingsThat Represent You:
Element:Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, LightTones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:Half-smile
Gemstone:Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Planet: Mars Hair
Color: Red Eye Color:Brown
Quote:"Appearances can be deceiving."
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Saturday, December 25, 2004, 12/25/2004 01:02:00 AM
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
TODAY WAS A BLAST! CHOCOLATES! PRESENTS! CANDY! MORE CHOCOLATES! FAMILY! FRIENDS! AMAZING! MASSIVE WEIGHT GAIN!
CHRISTMAS! Have a berry merry lerry christmas and a happy nappy bappy new year :)
let it snow let it snow let it snow
Saturday, December 18, 2004, 12/18/2004 01:44:00 PM
A Mediacorp employee bemuses:
1) I see a celebrity, I ignore them and after a distance, I smile to myself. I FREAKING SMILE TO MYSELF. -refer to past entries for the reason-
2) It's always gotta be minus degrees in the office, they must have HUGE air con ducts. It's ridiculous in a way, so hot outside, so cold inside.
3) After I come back from work, I can't stop talking. I talk to the wall, I talk to my parents, I talk to my brother, all non-stop.
4) I once listened to a Christmas carols station the whole day, only to find myself singing non stop.
5) My colleagues are so cheeeeeena, wah lau eh. Knn.
6) I got to stop dreading the distance to and fro from work, cuz it's a long long long long way.
Supposedly thats enough bemusing.
I had this dream about all my primary school friends, like we all gather for a graduation ceremony and were wearing different coloured robes. The guys were in army uniform and I was the only one NOT wearing a robe. I saw my ex-puppy lover in the stands at the ceremony but I couldnt get to him because I wasn't wearing the robe, so I climbed over, grabbed a leftover a robe and pretended to blend in. Eventually I got his number :) and many more.. How great to wake up at 11.30am to see the sun above my head already...
Christmas! bah humbug.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004, 12/15/2004 01:04:00 AM
the low low low pits that i ever came
it's been months since I felt
wrong this wrong that
it sure doesnt feel like rad!
keep making mis-takes
where i am supposed not to make
but then again
if i do not, where will i gain
the low low low pits that i ever felt
please let it melt
Monday, December 13, 2004, 12/13/2004 09:34:00 PM
12/13/2004 01:42:00 AM
U2- Vertigo
Unos, dos, tres, catorce
Turn it up loud, captain
Lights go down
It's dark, the jungle is
Your head can't rule your heart
A feeling so much stronger
Than a thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul
It can't be bought
Your mind can wander
Hello, hello
Hola
I'm at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something I can feel
Feel
The night is full of holes
These bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle
As the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know
I can't stand the beats
I'm asking for the check
Girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus 'round her neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music
Hello, hello
Hola
I'm at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something I can feel
Feel
Shot dead
Shots fall
Show me, yeah
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want
And no one gets hurt
Hello, hello
Hola
We’re at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
Lights go down and all I know
Is that you give me something
I can feel your love teaching me how
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel
Kneel
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Thursday, December 09, 2004, 12/09/2004 01:59:00 PM
It's been a long week since the emerge of our first Singapore Idol. Seriously, why do they have to announce the percentage of votes? Huh huh. Mediacock.
Speaking of Mediacock, or affectionately known as Mediacorp, I am now an employee. Shit, u think they'll check the IP address then trace to me for I am typin this in the office wheres it's below 5 degree that's why I am wrapped in 2 layers of clothing. excludin my chest supporter.
Yes, I slot advertisements for a living.(ad admin coordinator) You see those commercials on tv, yes I slot them into your favourite program. To think of , I always am irritated by commercials. SURPRISE SURPRISE, look where I am now. There are 2 kinds of people when u see stars, one who will be very excited and go up to them and say hi. Another is who will act nonchalant but then they are actually like wow inside. I Jasmine Choo belong to the latter. After all, we're colleagues. Wow, who can say Hi, I am colleagues with Zoe Tay. Like REAL only. Oh well, it's my rice bowl now so gotta preserve the rice. And no, I didnt see SLY. Who cares bout Taufik? Heh.
My OCBC stint is over.. sigh, they didnt convert me to permenant after all. Just gotta move on, if not, you'll never know where you can excel. Be fidget, not stagnant. I do miss my colleagues a lot, and being a new girl right now, it's history all over again.
I miss
1) my colleagues, SARAH, KAVITA,PRISCILLA and SOOK YEE. Hell, I miss everyone. Thank you each of you for giving me laughter, snacks and jokes. The lunches, the dinner, the cd, the bag, everything.
2) Raffles Place food (China Sq, I didnt know it existed till this year.), Western food, Japanese food, Fish soup, huge $1 guava at Siang Heng. Roti Boy?! Workin in Raffles place made me open my eyes to excuisite lunches. Anyway Golden Shoe food rawks my socks off. Ya Bao Coffeestall!! The uncle n auntie even said bye and good luck. *sniffs* The DBS bank teller at Royal Brothers Building *eh i think i remember you, u have no ATM card right?* IF I DO, WHY WOULD I BE IN FRONT OF YOU.
3) The distance from my house to office which i always take for granted.
4) The near distance of the toilet for now the toliet is really far. Wonder how much time to run if ur really urgent and ur holding ur pants and suddenly a star passes by. Glam?
5) Esp Sarah who taught me standards on work, how to perform, how to be smart. Lots of freebies from her too. -evil laughs- The jokes, the gossip, the term *loose wrist*, the music. ok, one day we go clubbin ya.
Side note to everyone who's happy for me to work in Mediacock : My colleagues are cheena kind, so dont think so I really will go clubbin with them ya. All the ah lians are on the 2nd floor, I am on the first. Aiyah, I'm a noob here!!! NOOB NOOB NOOB.
This is freezing, I have to buy the jacket for "cool" purposes.
12/09/2004 01:37:00 PM
Thursday, December 02, 2004, 12/02/2004 01:58:00 AM
There was this girl.not yet a woman who watched Singapore Idol and decided to support this wildcard contestant called Sylvester Sim. She followed his journey, didnt know he stayed in the WEST near LAKESIDE till she moved to Tanah Merah.
He is a rocker and hell does she loves rockers. He memerized her with his songs, his cheeky grin, his signature hand sign, his voice. She was so taken in that she told EVERY SINGLE one who would listen to her that she supports Sylvester. Till there was one time her votes started swinging cuz he was involved with this bitch called Maia but thank god it turned out to be fake, you think? She doesnt care. His mom's scandal hit him hard but he bounced back, unfortunately it might cost him some huge swinging votes. But not mine, after seeing him performing the final stage, she liked him all over again till she had the money and sense to give him a vote. Did her vote help? God, she thought when Sylvester sang I DREAM, it was so fucking fantastic, honest, raw and beautiful. It's my life his version didnt quite cut it, she thought he was contispated. OH WELL.
THE END.
ps: She'll buy his album. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
Yes, surprise surprise. NOT. As I said, Taufik will win. Am I right or am I not right? Ok lah, clap clap.
Just wondering, how to GO TO WORK like that when I WAS ACTIVELY PROMOTING "VOTE FOR SLY" POST its? Ugh. It's ok I am not a loser, 2nd place is still a winner.