"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in

Six billion of us walking the planet.
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.

you can say something

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    Saturday, January 28, 2006, 1/28/2006 08:59:00 PM

    i love chinese new year.

    they represent hope, warmth, food, love, weight issues, scandalous gossip, money, gambling habits, fake smiles, new clothes, new bags, new underwear, red packets, being stingy, being generous, red but most important, a new hopeful you for the new year.

    don't you just love cny? i do.

    now, everybody bark! wang wang!

    happy year.




    Wednesday, January 25, 2006, 1/25/2006 06:38:00 PM

    i need to fill this out because i am going crazy. My work!!!!!!!!!!!!! If stressed is spelled DESSERTS as backwards, then I am never goin to eat desserts again. "LOVE THE LIFE YOU LIVE" I read. Kiss my ass.

    1 Birthdate?
    6 Jul

    2 Place of birth?
    Singapore

    3 Blood type?
    O+

    4 Height?
    163cm

    5 Weight?
    er. depends on festive period, pms period.

    6 Shoe size?
    8-9

    7 Work? Study?
    It's such a toughie, gee - flips hair- . Neither.

    8 Childhood nickname?
    choo choo train

    9 Average hours you sleep in a day?
    5

    10 Time you go bed?
    11pm-1am, the occasional 2-4am.

    11 Any siblings?
    One younger brother

    12 Eyesight - short-sighted, long-sighted or perfect?
    perfect. or so i think.

    13 What languages do you speak?
    fluent in English, making it in Mandarin, ok in hainanese and cantonese. cuss freely in hokkien.

    14 What languages would you like to speak?
    Spanish and Thai

    15 Nickname on Messenger?
    too random. not the nick too random!! -_-"

    16 What do you collect?
    memories and feelings. collection is growing.

    17 Model of handphone you are using?
    samsung e700a

    18 What is on your shopping list?
    mp3 player. more blouses/tops. tolietries. this perfect bag. underwear. cds. books.


    19 Favourite t-shirt brand?
    gap

    20 Favourite cut of jeans?
    just right. i have like no freakin idea but the jeans must fit your ass.legs perfectly. not tight, not loose. geddit?

    21 Favourite fashion designer?
    Gucci.

    22 Favourite clothing label?
    none. can't confine myself to one. too limited.

    23 Favourite shoe label?
    refer to answer no.22

    24 Favourite bag label
    Louis Vuitton

    25 Most dominant colour in your wardrobe?
    Black

    26 Most worn-pair of shoes?
    My red converse

    27 Favourite Shampoo?
    Ginvera White tea, so far.

    28 Favourite Conditioner ?
    Sifone

    29 Favourite bath product?
    Dettol!!

    30 Favourite facial product?
    this bacteria fighting toner.

    31 Favourite cosmetics?
    my LANCOME lip gloss.

    32 Favourite art movement?
    nua-ing. my msn partners should know.

    33 Favourite artist?
    nah.

    34 Favourite gallery?
    nah

    35 Favourite cold drink?
    Heaven and Earth green tea

    36 Favourite hot drink?
    hot chocolate

    37 Favourite flavour of ice-cream?
    choc chips with peppermint

    38 Favourite cuisine?
    it's a tie between Japanese / Thai / Italian / Western. pun intended

    39 Favourite sandwhich?
    this ham and cheese from food barn

    40 Favourite cake?
    chocolate

    41 Favourite chocolate?
    everything in the world

    42 Favourite Fast Food?
    everything in the world

    43 Favourite Sushi?
    the sweet tofu skin with tuna mayo!

    44 Favourite breakfast?
    nasi lemak / vegetarian beehoon

    45 Spaghetti - tomato, cream or pesto sauce
    tomato. hands down

    46 Beef - rare, medium-rare, medium, well-done?
    well done

    47 Restaurant you frequent most?
    Sakae Sushi

    48 Best dining experience?
    everything is a gastronomical affair.

    49 Worst dining experience?
    er. i dont think i have any. at least i think so.

    50 Favourite book?
    Book of Joe by Jonathan Tropper

    51 Favourite movie?
    Never been kissed. But then again, I have too many.

    52 Favourite artist writer?
    I dont really read their biographies

    53 Favourite actor?
    Adam Brody

    54 Favourite actress?
    Felicity Huffman

    55 Favourite record?
    Too many to pick

    56 Favourite Singer?
    its a tie between Jason Mraz and Gavin Degraw.

    57 Favourite Band?
    Papa Roach

    58 Favourite lyrics?
    Scars

    59 Favourite TV show?
    The OC

    60 Favourite newspaper?
    Straits Time

    61 Favourite magazine?
    8 days. I havent read cosmopolitan yet.

    62 Favourite flower?
    carnations

    63 Favourite animal?
    dog

    64 Favourite country?
    spain

    65 Favourite steet (in your country)?
    tanah merah kechil.

    66 Favourite street (overseas)
    temple street (muhahahaah cuz its like shopping there)

    67 Favourite sport?
    swimming.

    68 Scariest movie?
    dont watch, dont care.

    69 Funniest movie?
    i think every movie is funny. i am wacked.

    70 Favourite leisure activity?
    reading or pressing the remote control

    71 Favourite public transport?
    bus

    72 Favourite weather?
    winter

    73 Dream honeymoon destination?
    Spain / Turkey

    74 Computer you use?
    it's remixed.

    75 Wallpaper on your computer?
    Ricky Martin!!!!

    76 Screen saver on your computer?
    my pictures

    77 How many hours on the internet a day?
    I am accessible to the Internet 15hrs a day.

    78 Favourite blog?
    David's. For now.

    79 Favourite news site?
    www.channelnewsasia.com

    80 Favourite site?
    http://ode-to-me.blogspot.com MUHAHAHAHAH. no i am kidding. it's pinkisthenewblog.com

    81 First pet?
    fish

    82 Favourite cartoon from childhood?
    scooby doo / carebears / captain planet

    83 Favourite toy from childhood?
    masak masak

    84 What makes you smile?
    everything. like an insane person. woohoo

    85 What makes you cry?
    stupidity and frustation

    86 Which celebrity would you like to be?
    Jessica Alba

    87 What colour would you be if you are a crayon?
    Red

    88 If you can go back in time, which period would you want to be in?
    The early 80s

    89 If you can have your own business, what would you venture into?
    Events org

    90 What TV program would you like to go on?
    The OC

    91 How satisfied are you with your current situation?
    Is this a trick question? As much as I WOULD LIKE to be satisfied. No I AM NOT.

    92 What would you rather be doing if you have a choice?
    Earning $ while doing something I really like. OR rather earning $ while doing nothing.

    93 The most important thing that has happened in your life?
    realizing what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. waking up to realize things around you might not always be what it seems.

    94 What do you think you'll be doing 5 years down the road?
    Earning much $$, havin my dream job, travellin around, staying in a much better apartment with my family.

    95 Most desired now?
    Sleep.

    96 Biggest worry now?
    My work

    97 Most unforgettable incident?
    somebody stepped over the line.

    98 New year resolution?
    be a better person, be more patient. refer to entry on 6 jan 2006

    99 Your motto in life?
    you think you know, but you have no idea.

    100 Who do you want to answer "100 Things About Me" ?
    EVERYBODY on my blog list.




    Monday, January 23, 2006, 1/23/2006 08:53:00 AM

    Please remember me forever
    Believe in me as someone
    Who's never gonna wish you well


    I'm gonna tell you what I think about you in that unforgivable way I do
    You're an idiot
    And I hate your guts

    I guess I'm about as happy for you as I would be a cockroach in my food
    I know it's terrible
    I really hate you though

    Do you have your fairytale life
    Or are you dancing to the white trash (trance)
    Oh please remember me
    Believe in me as someone
    Who's never gonna wish you well

    I heard the thing that you hate about me almost everyday, but you still wouldn't leave
    I had to pull the plug
    Ooh, I hated your guts
    And I heard the opposite of love isn't hate
    It's indifference
    But I can't relate
    It's not good enough

    Cuz I hate your guts

    Did you settle your mediocre mind
    You had to find out why you're better off with broader (lines)

    [Chorus]
    Oh please remember me
    Believe in me as someone
    Who's never gonna wish you well
    Oh please remember me
    Believe in me as someone
    Who wants you to go to hell

    You're in me, you're boring
    Oh, did you hear me snoring?
    I don't mutilate myself when I talk to you
    So tell me how did I hope you could tell that I'm no one's pearl
    You can have em, go to hell
    You're gonna drive 'em nuts
    They're gonna hate your guts




    Thursday, January 19, 2006, 1/19/2006 11:57:00 PM

    What do you normally do in the bus?

    Ans:I sleep, i snore ,i swivel my head and hit the window.

    To prove my point, there was one time this uncle was sittin beside me, then i think i fell asleep. Before I did that, he kept lookin at me like one kind. So I looked at him but somehow I got so tired that I drooped. When I looked up, he sat elsewhere. Somehow, I was slightly offended. Whatever.

    I need to get my strength, my stamina, my energy back. Stop it from zappping out like zzzz. hoho, pardon the pun.

    Happy 22nd birthday to Suzi! I just adore the necklace!! And I know you do too. -beams- Thanks for the night at Wala Wala. It was wild, it was funny and it was great. Maybe except the drink which tasted absolutely horrible. Virgin Mary, you suck. I felt like I was drinking nachos with chillis and tomatoes. Ugh. Pussy foot me anytime. The band on Wed was great with the exception that we know the lead singer's called NUCK and he has a funky auntie who happened to smile at me. I was like woooo got chance cuz her nephew is hot ,but in the end it turned out she wanted to know where's the toliet. -_-" Here's a toast to my buddy, Suziana Bte Samsudin. The lady who gyrates, who makes me laugh, who like me "likes" a certain race.

    Ecstasy!!! Happy 22nd birthday too. You and me, we meet.

    I hereby declare SUNDAY MORNING as my favourite Maroon 5 song ever.

    Sometimes i have a love hate relationship with MSN. They bring joy, laughter, sadness and anger. There are some people whom you really love to talk to but they just won't show u the basic courtesy and you're just dying to talk to them. That's not hot. There are some people whom you just refuse to talk to and yet they come buggin all day. But what I really love is those whom I love to talk to actually talks to me. Woohooo.

    Some people makes you just comfortable online, never mind offline yet. I would love to credit my chat partners, you know who you are. I'm just happy to be talkin to you. The daily talks, the daily jibes, the daily laughter, the daily SWEARING, you know. :B

    Backstreet boys, fondly called Backside boys. Shit fuck!! Should I go???? They are chargin the tickets at exorbitant prices and money is hard to come by. AHHH CRAP. I just got my fucking pay!!!!!! I have like 3 more days to think. Syl. HOW HOW HOW. This is so important. -blinks innocently- And yes. Capital E. Must stick...to it.. hmm. Treetop soon la, so does IN HER SHOES. Study hard but dont ever stress yourself all right. The outcome of my hair will be in the hands of the auntie. Btw, the auntie never shaves her pits leh. hmmm.

    Btw, I have voice mail in my office!! woohoo!! And I changed my greeting msg in my hp!! Woohoo!! All in one day. You know why. Cuz today's boring. Today's slack like shit.

    Grey's anatomy is just so humane, so inspiring. Any idea why I am in the teevee line?
    I love Jason Mraz. I love so many people till I lost count. But you Jason Mraz, are just so talented.

    "it's your god-forsaken right to be loved loved loved"

    celebrate randomness!




    Wednesday, January 11, 2006, 1/11/2006 01:11:00 PM



    i am goin to watch it. for the hot guy and for felicity huffman.




    sidenote : Screw K-Box. I am goin for K-Ster. Yup. That latter is located at Chinatown and it so rocks my socks way way way better than K-Box. You are looking at its newest member. -beams- Anybody who wants to go try out, call me k.

    god, i love being cheena.




    Monday, January 09, 2006, 1/09/2006 01:18:00 AM

    dear ricky martin,

    i would like to say i love your new single "I DON'T CARE" with Amerie and Fat Joe. It makes me wanna groove and shout "I Dont'Care" because i just think there's so much fun in doing that.

    i love your look, so sruffy and oh so hot. i er saw your pics on the beach with some other guy with hot speedos and please please don't turn gay. Girls need guys like u, wait I NEED A GUY like u.

    i saw your appearance on oprah today. your passion in helpin the less fortunate has increased my respect for you. you have travelled extensively to india and thailand to help people which included building homes for the tsunami victims. But what i wanted to point out was that you really stood up against child sex slavery. Your passion, your determination, your sincerity made me sit up. I mean besides the reason that ur hot.

    thank you for being a celebrity with heart.

    i heart ricky martin.


    dear oprah,

    thank you too for allowing your prg to be aired on cable tv on this side of the world. To let me realize that child sex slavery is just wrong, it's unethical and it's just sick. sick bastards who crave on child sex should be shot in the balls.

    i heart u too, but not as much.

    from a dot on the world,
    a teevee fan


    ps: i just love writing letters to people who wont even see this. makes me happy.




    Thursday, January 05, 2006, 1/05/2006 08:34:00 AM

    you know you need a break badly when you start to sleep in the bus every single day and your head tolls around like nobody's business and to end it all off, you had to bump your head against the window.

    you know you need a break badly when you are super grouchy in the morning and people are so fucking cheery in the morning and all you want to do is to tell them to "shut up".

    you know you need a break when your productivity is decreasing.


    oh yes. i do need a break, and possibly uninterrupted sleep.




    Tuesday, January 03, 2006, 1/03/2006 12:56:00 PM

    You scored as English. You should be an English major! Your passion lies in writing and expressing yourself creatively, and you hate it when you are inhibited from doing so. Pursue that interest of yours!

    Dance

    67%

    English

    67%

    Linguistics

    67%

    Theater

    58%

    Journalism

    58%

    Philosophy

    50%

    Anthropology

    50%

    Art

    50%

    Sociology

    42%

    Psychology

    42%

    Biology

    42%

    Mathematics

    33%

    Chemistry

    25%

    Engineering

    25%

    What is your Perfect Major?
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    ooh. so cool. thanks yubo, :B

    btw, call it weird but i think 2006 is gonna rock.

    -ponders : how far will my optimism take me 1 year later.-




    Sunday, January 01, 2006, 1/01/2006 10:30:00 PM

    Oh 2005, how should i do this? Salute you? Bow to you or kick you in the shins? This year has been just blah u know, nothing really outstanding. Sure, some great things happened, some bad things happened, and some, just continue the way they are.

    I would love to write about the world in general but I figure I will leave it up to the newspaper(that's what they are for) to report everything. So!! This entry is all going to be about me. I know the world has problems and I just don't want to be in it. for now.

    2005 seemed to just flew straight out of the window, I wonder why :

    1) Family - My dad went to Bahrain, probably sticking out for a year. I still want to whine "NO CAR LEH". We are doing all right, could be better. But I just want to really thank you for all of us being healthy.

    2) Friends - I can't please everybody but I WILL TRY MY DAMNEST BEST to be the good/close/best friend I can be. To my closest ones, thank you for being there and let's stay together always. I know you can't avoid shit(be it r/s problem, friendship problem)that's thrown at you but we can beat it, u know. I'll be holding the toliet paper for you. :B New friends, old friends, good friends, close friends : "Let's Stay Together"

    3) Job - Yes siree. I stood it out for a career! I have been a working woman. It's like empowering u know. To have a job. I mean your boss doesn't fire you and you earn your own pay. But please. EVERYBODY I KNOW knows my whines, the screw ups, the stress, the cute guy (please. far from good,good from far), the gasps at celebs, the gossip, the bitching. Oh. What a job. I'm gonna stick it out till the very last moment where i know i can't it no longer.

    4) Money - There's always not enough of this very existence. Please be everywhere in 2006.

    5) Love - There's always not enough of this very existence. You know what I mean.

    6) Me - I have been a terrible person. I dont think you want to know what I have been thinking, saying and doing. Who I am hates what I've been.
    I want to be/have/do :
    - less cynical, more optimistic
    - less stressed, more optimistic
    - less tired, more optimistic so I can have the energy to bloody work out.
    - less late, more optimistic when I face the person whom has been waiting for me. haha. bad joke. FINE. I'll try my damnest best to be early or on time.
    - less procrasination, more taking the initiative in the first bloody place.
    - less swearing, more optimistic, then I wouldn't swear as much.
    - more religious, I haven't been doin that often.
    - more planning, "happiness comes from planning"
    - more TIME!!!!!, this is so important, if I have more time, then I can plan everything between my friends and family.
    - more energy, yes, refer to point 3.

    If I were to think less/more about myself, my pages will be torn and frayed like a worn out open book. So I'll still remain as an open book, period.

    By the way, congratulations to people turning 21 in 2005. Thanks for the invites to your fab bash.
    Sarah!! Congrads on your wedding that fell perfectly on Xmas day, what a day to celebrate. Ho ho ho. Pun intended. This way, your husband can't forget and so can't you. :) It is always refreshing to see you, to talk to you and to bond with you. You looked great, your house looked great. Makes me very lavenderish, too bad no Barney. dammit, i am so funny. Thanks for everything though, the chocolates and the reception. Your husband cool seh!!! Nice hair. Btw, how come now got cute guys in your office?!!! Eunice looked great too and help me thank her again for the ride. Thanks and let's stay together in 2006 and forever and forever!

    Since this is the first day of 2006, you guys can TAKE NOTE OF THIS :

    I DID MAJOR SPRING CLEANING TO MY ROOM AND IT LOOKED FUCKING FANTASTIC!!!IT'S TOTALLY SO RAD. COME COME! GOT SPACE! GOT SPACE!

    All right, that was one thing to boast in 2006. I like it!!

    Another thing, I need to speak properly, get my English roots back before I get carried away by my Cheena roots. Proper Engrish!

    Do I sound optimistic or wad.

    "The opposite of love isn't hate. It's Indifference." Keep a look out fo this line.

    2006! Please try to rock.