"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in

Six billion of us walking the planet.
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.

you can say something

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    Wednesday, August 30, 2006, 8/30/2006 09:26:00 AM

    hello everybody, i have an amazing amount of stupidity and naiveness.




    Sunday, August 27, 2006, 8/27/2006 10:26:00 PM

    it's been decided. the date has been set on 11 Sept 2006, fondly known as 9/11.

    i'll bet everybody will remember. ok fine, i will.

    i'm officially cleaning up shit-niz for the company, doing my part to keep the company and my rep as clean so they don't call me up for no reason and go "hey jas, u didnt do this did u" i know i am the no.1 procrasinator but still.

    i'm goin to fly. pun pun.

    i would attend every ad-asia night i can so i can save on my money for dinner and drinks. i know i am the no.1 cheapo nana(there's a reason why i am president). good what, you can bring friends in, let them mingle. let people drop their name-cards on you (hint hint gab). and meeting harv ever since like forever is so cool. you put 2 classmates together (fyi. i wasn't even their classmate, only schoolmate) and you get gossip and catch-ups. and what's amazing, all of us are in the media/entertainment industry. straight up, ice cold. 2 guys and a girl. uh huh, and i so can drink, you guys. it's just only a fleeting moment that my mind drifted to my bed. -.-"

    ps: i still wanna thank my boat row-er to intro to me my free dinner/drink of every month. heh.

    speakin of boat-rower, been m-i-a. never mind, never mind. i know ur happy and i'm happy too.

    eh, i don't think i am selected for 5 takes. bummer. there are 4000 entries all over the asia-pacific region being submitted, i'm one of them. but it's ok at least i tried. and had fun doing the video and had not so much fun climbin the friggin tree top walk which is worth about 8km walk in total. i think i lost like 5 kg that day, only to gorge myself with swenson's at thomson's the next moment i walked out of the forest. thank you swensons's staff for bringing the extremely cold ice tea that i have requested.

    have i ever mentioned there's this EXTREMELY FRIENDLY bus driver on bus 17? he'll always greet all passengers aboarding and alighting. we need people like that for the IMF Singapore 2006. so the govt says.

    govt says to recruit new FOREIGN talents for singapore's good. hey, we can have more people like china chinese, indians, vietnamese, indonesians, malaysians, americans, french, germans, spainards, africans etc. wow, i can't wait for the crime rates to go up, the transport rate to go up, the living expenses to go up, the population to go up, the number of EMPTY HDB blocks to go up, ALL KINDS OF STUPID INFLATION TO GO UP. yes why not. i can't wait for brain drain either.


    i so stole this picture for ZHIQUAN'S blog. should i call you zhiqiang. man, i'm so sorry i arrowed you.

    10 year's reunion?!!! I know. I know. trust me, it is amazing. ok, of course if you pardoned the grumblings i had earlier, the gathering was fun. everybody looked the same, the quiet remained well, quiet, the loud remained loud, or better, even louder. jokes and dirty jokes were strewn, compliments were made, insults were made (yes, i forever the butt of jokes - but shuling's so the new target. 56k) but in all good fun, contacts were made, fresh new bonds were made, warm fuzzy feelings aplenty. imagine not meetin for 10 years, and to go ktv for entertainment, i presumed it's not very wise on my part cus i can't sing. we so have a frigging BOYBAND in the making. TENSION!! like part 2. the guys can sing. my god, the guys can sing. yea, i'm amazed and i still insist chevron is for losers. yea.

    i'm cracked soil, again.




    Sunday, August 20, 2006, 8/20/2006 12:15:00 PM

    dilemmas are not that tough to handle right. it's only a matter of choosing what you really want.

    wrong.

    it is that hard. especially when you are faced with obligations that your guilt just would not let up.

    -try to refrain from having a good working attitude. this way when you want to quit, it's easier. your ex company won't have to plead you to stay.
    -try to be anti-social. this way people will have to shun you and leave you alone and cut off all ties and you wouldn't feel the sadness when you leave.
    -how many times must i emphasis it's not bout the people/job that gets to me, but it's the time and opportunity to change to move on. (exposure/people/interaction)
    -i really like the people there a lot and don't my boss realize that the guilt of leaving a short handed staff has already killed me. it's not bout being selfish, ok maybe i am.
    -bosses should do something about the job if so many people are opting to leave.
    -bosses do anything to suck you up when they need people, yea including massive bull of shit. (bullshit will bring you to the top but it won't make you stay for long - how apt)

    it's about me. not them.

    the biggest mistake one can make when changing jobs.
    NEVER EVER TELL YOUR PRESENT COMPANY WHERE YOU'RE GOING.
    even when your boss asks. please don't.
    i shouldn't admit this to the world but i have to because it's for the greater good to let people know how incredibly STUPID i am. i need IQ classes.
    of course you shouldnt tell because you don't know whether your ex company will sabo you, lowering your chances. and bosses will tend to compare which pretty much irks me.

    yes yes. i'm so naive and stupid.

    yea, i'm leaving my company for the best for all mankind.

    i noticed when i asked for answers from above, i got very apt songs titles being played, horoscopes spewing out bout good changes, good divination lots, comments from people to change change change.

    i think it's a good sign.

    anyway i already made up my mind and i'm only young once. i figure the only thing i'll lose is my sleep.

    if you wanna know where i'm goin to, beep me.

    ps: i want to say thank you to every single one who has listened to me, who has given their precious comments, who has taught me so much. thank you. thank you. thank you. i feel blessed to have people like you. thank you.

    oh, i dreamt bout a wedding last night. it symbolizes a death but it can takes on different meanings, not necessarily a body.

    i think it's a sign.




    Thursday, August 17, 2006, 8/17/2006 10:48:00 PM

    I will try not to breathe
    I can hold my head still with my hands at my knees
    These eyes are the eyes of the old, shivering and bold

    I will try not to breathe
    This decision is mine. I have lived a full life
    And these are the eyes that I want you to remember, oh

    I need something to fly over my grave at night
    I need something to breathe

    I will try not to burden you
    I can hold these inside. I will hold my breath
    Until all these shivers subside,
    Just look in my eyes

    I will try not to worry you
    I have seen things that you will never see
    Leave it to memory me. I shudder to breathe

    I want you to remember, oh (you will never see)
    I need something to fly (something to fly)
    Over my grave at night (you will never see)
    I need something to breathe (something to breathe)
    Baby, don't shiver now
    Why do you shiver? (I will see things you will never see)
    I need something to fly (something to fly)
    Over my grave again. (I will see things you will never see)
    I need something to breathe, oh, oh, oh, oh
    Oh, oh, oh, oh
    Oh, oh, oh, oh
    Oh, oh, oh, oh
    Oh, oh, oh

    I will try not to worry you
    I have seen things that you will never see
    Leave it to memory me. Don't dare me to breathe
    I want you to remember, oh (you will never see)
    I need something to fly (something to fly)
    Over my grave at night (you will never see)
    I need something to breathe (something to breathe)
    Baby, don't shiver now
    Why do you shiver now? (I will see things you will never see)
    I need something to breathe (something to breathe - I have seen things you will never see)
    I want you to remember




    8/17/2006 01:14:00 AM

    i will follow you into the dark

    One of the best covers ever.

    it didn't hurt that he looks absolutely cute, isn't he.




    Monday, August 14, 2006, 8/14/2006 12:29:00 AM

    the video and entry had been sent.

    now we wait for the force.




    Saturday, August 12, 2006, 8/12/2006 12:46:00 AM



    gab. shall we????

    go check the trailer out leh.




    Thursday, August 10, 2006, 8/10/2006 12:38:00 PM

    i want to be in 5 TAKES. i'm desperate enough to leave my bland life and go travelling for 2 months. that's if i get picked or chosen or taken or selected or decided.

    i just need to shoot myself. like not literally.

    isn't it ironic/apt that beck's LOSER is playing right now as i type this post. uh huh.

    settler's cafe is now nicely settled in my mind. pun pun. i never knew playing all sorts of board games could actually be fun u know, LIKE WHOLESOME GOODY FAMILY FUN. well, except when you play games like charades or cranium, a little "dirtiness" comes out. and of course no points for guessing who can be the dirty one -.-" fine fine. oh well, at least i made a new fruit, i mean friend, papaya courtesy of weijie and sylvia. and of course syl, ur just waitin for this part aint u. yes yes i had fun, and i have innate cynicism so i apologized for being a skeptic bitch. u need to have a whole deal of common/book/street sensesmarts to play cranium and other games, i think. really la, damn fun. if i can have fun, so can you. go get settled, pun pun.

    seriously i have sleep deficiency.

    and this very important useless information, nic from superband was from jurong sec and grad the same batch as me. so he's like 22, rich and famous. basket, he used to be short can and had centre parting hair. wow, if i knew, i would also form a band, sing happy rock songs and charm the socks off stupidly teenage girls who would waste their money on them and had people cheering so loud for them that i couldnt feel my ear drums. yea i would. BUT. i am not shallow as i seem to be. i have searched my SOUL but the search failed. i was like rootin for them becus they oh so smooth and had nifty dance steps. fine, i dont like milopeng. and i also took home 3 goodie bags. got free hair dyes can.

    i can't believe i just talked a paragraph on superband. i'm supposed to be cool.

    congratulations on aisha and khaliq. -inserts awwww- u two can mate and have beautiful kids. beautiful wedding, the food, like omg, we gorged ourselves like we fast(pun, pun) for 1 week. thanks for the little token k. it's very er dainty, guess i could put my 5 cent coins? haha. ok joke. your sister getting prettier eh, now i see your problem. oh, u know u should really include dress code in your invitation card cus i saw some people dont respect you enough to wear decent clothes to a friggin wedding. shorts?!! wtf. slippers?! wtf. i wish u'd do something. but anyway, congratulations, i look forward to housewarming, 1st month baby party and etc. heh.

    hard candy is good. die, paedophiles, die.

    i'm a soft-core sadist.

    u know what i detest. the easy spread of negativity. the nasty comments, just bad things to say. never have a good enough comment. you think these people are jealous or they stuff themselves with so much sour grapes that they turn ,er, sour. sure, those are honest comments but eventually people do choose to hear what they only want to hear. you and me, we all live in a hypocrite world.

    i do hope i put enough subtle-ty for people to understand.

    "Black hole sun
    Won't you come
    And wash away the rain
    Black hole sun
    Won't you come"




    8/10/2006 09:17:00 AM

    bad boys, bad boys, watcha gonna do, watcha gonna do when they come for you.