"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Monday, December 31, 2007, 12/31/2007 02:28:00 AM
ladies and gentlemen, the entry that you have waiting for, my life of 2007! broken down into sectors for easy reading. haha, i know, dont need to thank me.and another year bites the dust.
Sector 1: the ever present Work
I'm a workaholic. i have breathed in, ate about, slept with and wrote about work. everything i did revolved around work. it was like a pill, instead of making me better, it kept making me ill. it has never gotten me rich either. it was a case of "i got so sick of myself bitching all day, all night that it became either i quit or i quit complaining". so, i quit.
the good
a) friendships with people from all walks of life. ok not really that drama, but somewhere there.
b) it has trained me to be more alert, more observant, how to carry myself better, more initiative, more pro-active and more street wise. btw, my jokes become better yes??
c) it has opened my eyes to so much more, there are so many places that you can hold events at, there are so many people that i thought i would never meet but i did (really, A LOT OF PEOPLE), get to know my artiste's personality a little more so we can work better, it's all about people management and pr skills man. - suzi! remember oosh!?!
d) travelling business class to munich, germany. man, who can ever ever forget that. lilin's my bff haha. besides the trip's free and sponsored. so what is there not to like.
e) my ability to curse like chinese trash.
f) there's a club for me to PLAY at weekly and i know everybody there. wow, i belong.
the bad
a) i became more cynical and darker.
b) i stopped having expectations or rather have low expectations so when u fall, i'm almost touching the ground.
c) money's always out, never in.
d) i just don't have time for family, friends and me. dont really mention the words "time management" to me.
e) middle management whom are fond of tai-chi. (haha guess what, the latter did die of over-dose)
f) seriously, retreat was to go GENTING?!! but it's ok i think i brought back a whole wad of products enough to open my own pasar malam stall.
the ugly
a) never believe what you see on tv because u never know they may just disappoint you.
b) always believe that people are capable of worst things.
c) people are greedy
d) we have a fucking punch card system?!
in a way, i am going back to the advertising industry. i'm gonna be paid just a litttttlllllle bit more to suck up to more people, haha. so please, i'm just a little girl, working, hoping that more money will befall on her. i'll talk bit more next year if the time's right. :)
Sector 2: my supporting but sometimes damn pain in the ass Family
i love my family. actually they are on par with work, so cannot compare. i'll drop everything on hand the moment something happens to my family (furiously touches wood). u can say i get along well, we talk, we share like families. BUT. they cannot stop harping on me going home late, working late, on why can't i do something useful with my break while waiting for the next job? blah blah.
the good
a) my mom, my dad and my brother.
b) my parents turning 50! wow, half a century already. it's damn scary. i don't know whether to put in good or bad. i'll see as good la, so much experience right.
c) my extended cousins and family.
'nuff said.
ps: the comparison will never stop between you and your sibling(s)/cousins. happy chinese new year in advance. haha.
the bad
a) the constant nagging and sacarsm(!!) from my parents - come home early la, work so much for wad, they pay you enough meh, work smart la, blah blah blah.
b) really, sarcasm?! on me?!! it's like teaching a technician to fix his own machine. -.-
c) like to them, a successful person today must have a degree and a lot of money so to support ownself. guess what, i don't have both.
the ugly
a) my mom tries too hard to be hip and buys HIP clothes for me. it's bit painful to watch but easy to reject.
b) my dad did slim down so good for him, bad for us. he would insist on sharing a plate of hor fun (wtf?!!!!). imagine me having PMS and starving, he wants to share. that was not a good day.
c) i have so many things in my room, if i were to sell each and everything, i'll be rich.
oh i have already pre-empted them that i'll be working late in my new job so they can't nag more and i can say "see i told you so".
Sector 3: my sometimes there sometimes not there but still i love you FRIENDS
i love my friends. if family is the spine, then friends are the other limbs and organs that support you. i am thankful that i have many friends i can count on, to share jokes with, to bitch with, to confide in and to be there for me.
the good
a) as mentioned in sector 1, i forged many friendships. from artistes to colleagues, the list don't stop. it's quite amazing really to see us, hanging out after work, meeting on weekends, bitching on the phone etc.
b) the gossips we shared are damn priceless and the jokes we cracked are damn hilarious.
c) some circles are getting closer.
d) thank you for being there each and everyone. omg, the patience and the understanding when i go on and on. now i get it.
e) congratulations on the engagement(nat), the weddings (yvan and eunice) and the birth of a new life! (aisha) :)
the bad
a) some have changed to whom you recognize still, but you realized you don't really know them after all. perhaps to keep up with the times, they became more materialistic, more shallower. i was determined not be impressed, even if i was, i refused to let them see the expression.
b) sometimes, all you want to do is to present some friends with a mirror. and hope they BLOODY WAKE UP.
c) some circles are getting wider.
d) sometimes, pri sch gatherings are not as successful as what we like to think of. to be honest, it was boring as hell, i had not much topics with some and we just ha hee humed all the way. sad good ol days.
the ugly
a) there are times when i meet some friends, i tell them where i work and suddenly, hey i'm your best friend. so shallow.
b) u know, there are times that you just don't want to meet those friends but you have to, out of social obligation? yeap i'm guilty of that so i'm talkin bout myself on this.
friends! can we try to meet more often, please?!
i apologize if some photos aren't here but i'll try for the next batch next year k.
Sector 4: if Entertainment were free everytime.
haha, i can't deny some perks. hey i like free things, just like everybody else. i've been known to be called jas the cheapo. haha.
the good
a) movies - some of worth mentioning are 300 (i paid twice, 600 = milf), alvin and the chipmunks, 881 (watched twice, 16162), I am Legend, Ratatouille, Harry Potter etc. whether it's free or not, i'm glad i caught those.
b) concerts - muse and christina aguilera (omg. it's so damn good, everlasting thanks to boss ang). not like i go concerts frequently.
c) musicals / theatre - the pillowman (which i unfortunately dozed off a couple of times but still good!), lord of the flies (damn lucky i caught before they end abruptly), chitty chitty bang bang (i thought was quite good leh), asian boys (so thought provocative - syl, it opened ur eyes ahaha), titoudao etc. not like i go watch theatre frequently also.
d) tv - i can really relate to ugly betty. probably the only series i follow religiously.
e) events - i treat every event every roadshow every party as an opportunity to observe and learn. oh, and to get the free goodie bag too lol.
f) i discovered olivia ong! well not me the manager but her music... -.-
the bad
a) people talking in the movies - i had people sitting beside me and they were going thru the storyline. i am like dude, we are watching movie, not tv?
b) some movies such as the heartbreak kid and enchanted. a bit the disappointing.
c) too much booze. liver alert. late nights, eye bags and immune system alert.
the ugly
a) people who ask for free goodie bag. fyi. though i love goodie bags but i will never never ask for it. i'm cheap, but NOT that cheap.
Sector 5: the ECAs
ok besides work, i do have a smallllllll social life.
the good
a) i donated blood for the first time and it feels damn good. i need to donate again, anybody up for it?
b) LIVE EARTH. i've been trying to cut down on plastic bags and papers. i admit that i wasn't as hardcore as before during the campaign but i am trying everyday. cut me some plastic man.
c) i met my pri school friend (whom i dreamt of occasionally and i wonder why) at an event and we have been in touch since. the irony.
d) we tried kampong fish therapy uh huh, it's your only chance to see fishes gone wild live!
e) we tried botak jones uh huh, that's the place to go if you want to gain 10000kg. but food is gold, so treasure every single bite.
f) i think i went haji lane the first time.
g) FACEBOOK?!!!!
the bad
a) people at haji lane can try to act less cool and be less pretentious.
b) people at bloodbank can be less pompous, we know it feels good but u dont have to write it out.
c) FACEBOOK?!!!!
the ugly
a) i feel damn paiseh when people treat me when i'm broke. i always say it's a temporary loan k. i need to re-evaluate my expenditure.
Sector 6: the non-existent Love life
where do i even begin?
hmm. after 10 mins of staring at the screen, i decided to not write anything. nothing to write leh.
jason, u wonder? he doesn't call anymore but he did ask for my number first because he lost his hp. ah-ha! cheap thrill.
nothing ever happens and nothing will happen. my brother said i'm doomed to be a spinster.
i therefore concluded my life of 2007. i'm thankful that everybody is alive and doing ok, i'm thankful that i am always employed and have food to eat. i'm thankful that i have a roof over my head and can have anything i want. i'm thankful for being healthy and able to do anything i want. i'm thankful for everything.
looking at my past entries, i was always so angst, always so dark. in a sad twisted way, i felt comfortable, was comfortable in the dark hole, no wonder they say the dark side is so alluring. i guess i only blogged about the unhappy things but not the happy huh. maybe that's why it appeared loopsided.
i wouldn't want to say hey let's be happy in 2008 because i know that's impossible (the cynic in me strongly agrees) but all i can say is let's try and see how things go, keep it low and everything will be ok (the cynic in me readily agrees), i think. 1 exciting note: i am going to be a bridesmaid next year, it's been like 15 years ago since i was a flower girl. different yes? haha.
and as u grow older, u think about times when it all began, how it all started, how it evolved and to settle on a situation like this today. i miss the times when everything all began.
good bye chicken pie 2007, hello alligator 2008.
Thursday, December 27, 2007, 12/27/2007 02:19:00 PM
SINGAPORE : Households and businesses in Singapore will have to pay more for electricity from next year.SP Services said tariffs will be going up from the first quarter of 2008.
A statement released on Wednesday showed that the new rates will hit a six—year high for households and small businesses.
SP Services attributed the higher cost of electricity to higher fuel prices.
On average, the tariffs will go up by 5.94 percent. This translates into an increase of about S$1.30 in the monthly bill of households staying in one—room flats.
Residents of 5—room flat units are likely to pay about S$5.50 more each month.
The rates are reviewed and adjusted according to fluctuating electricity costs every quarter, and they have been approved by industry regulator, the Energy Market Authority. — CNA /ls
it's quite disturbing to see every single thing going up, i took a cab yesterday from kembagan to my house at midnight. it cost me 8 dollars! the normal rate based on that distance is only $6 plus can. and the meter was jumping 20 cents each! what happened to 10 cents?!!!! what happened to cabs?? knn.
i'm going to take public transport and walk forever.
it's really disheartening to see prices keep going up and to know that my prime minister's pay is $3 something million a year.
money can buy happiness.
Friday, December 21, 2007, 12/21/2007 12:56:00 AM
i shouldn't be taking a break from bloggin. it seems like i have so many things to say and the moment i sit down, fingers poised on the keyboard, i forget.i dont know where to start. it's quite late also, perhaps i should begin another day, probably next week. u know end the year with my traditional "oh, my 2007 was spent like this blah blah".
long entry?? do not fret. since i have much more time now, i'll probably break it down to parts. actually then again, i have so many things to say, i dont know.
we see where the river will flow.
perhaps it's the cold weather or the warm fuzzy period inside, i suddenly miss the thought of missing someone. like the phonecall or sms or msn. i think i'm getting soft.
do read my next entry because i do have stuff to say!
i really love jonathan tropper the author, i really do.
and for the love of everything, i love celine dion again:
it's the sappy weather dammit!