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you can let the sun in

Six billion of us walking the planet.
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.

you can say something

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    Tuesday, November 30, 2004, 11/30/2004 11:11:00 PM



    TOMORROW'S THE BIG DAY!!! Hell, I am gonna knock off from work ON THE FREAKIN DOT at 6.30pm to reach home at 7.15pm, settle down to watch SINGAPORE IDOL FINALE!!!!
    Place your bets, step right up step right up.

    Taufik will make a good winner but somehow I want Sylvester to win. I just know who to place my vote for, hmmmmmm. Anyone who passes by Dover MRT will see this huge VOTE FOR TAUFIK banner, damn farny I say, FREE PUBLICITY FOR SP!! What, no banner from JSS? Aye, you think it's a "between races" contest now, instead of talent? What if all chinese decide to vote for Sly and all malays decide to vote for Taufik? Open thought.

    Anyhow, big day aside. I GOT THE MEDIACORP JOB! WOOHOO! *cartwheels* Still I feel a little disappointed that I will be leaving OCBC so fast. Am startin on the 8th, like what the hell.. can't they refresh me on the 13th which is on a monday. Fresh!! I'll be a noob all over again. I am working in TV Mobile, how to get free tickets like that?!!!! Nabei..

    Baby boy, make me lose my breath
    Bring the noise, make me lose my breath
    Hit me Hard, make me lose my (Hah Hah)




    Saturday, November 27, 2004, 11/27/2004 01:06:00 AM



    Welcome to the motherfucking greatest *jay-z music fades*

    I BOUGHT MY ROONEY CD!!!!! HELL YEAH!!! It's like 5 bucks cheaper than its original price, at HMV. Woohoo!!!

    Went to watch Bridget Jones 2: The Edge of Reason at Cathay with Claire. It's free!! Whee! Pardon the exclaimation marks because I bought my dream cd and i'm feeling kinda perky. The show's predictable but its witty dialogue saves the movie. British accents are such turn-ons, you think? Renee Zelleweger is such an amazing actress that she piled on huge pounds for this flick, making her look well, big in a way. How does she lose it anyway? Bridget falls in love in part one, Bridget feels insecure in her relationship with oh so cute Mark Darcy (Colin Firth), they break, they patch and live happily ever after. Not as funny as Part one but still worth watching, during weekdays. 3/5 bling bling.

    It's nice hanging out with Claire :B

    My interview with Mediacorp left me feeling confident. Wah, like I confirm get the job sia. Anyway, there were 2 interviewers 1 female and 1 male. Mostly the female asked qns like your address, was it far gettin here. Of course I said distance is not a problem. More qns like your course, why wasnt it related, tell me bout OCBC environment, the pay's pretty high though ($1.5 to 1.6K), I could go on but then it'll be boring. No, I didnt see Sylvester, people were actually hanging out at the reception, like hanging out.. uh, they are so free...

    My big boss has tickets to Singapore Idol Finale!!!! BUT she refused, her secretary Magdeline refused, I WANTED but Mag forgot bout me. SHE FORGOT THAT I AM A FAN!! I forgot to stick the stupid VOTE FOR SLY OR DIE paper at my cubicle today.

    I am having an indecent obsession, I am not predictable.

    Feeling pesky, here's my Christmas Wish List:
    1) Open toe pointed sandals
    2) Clutch Bag
    3) Robbie Williams, Ronan Keating, Britney, Jet and Renee Olstead albums
    4) Old school jacket
    5) Glow or Still by JLO perfume or True Star by Beyonce
    6) Vintage T-shirts
    7) Red/Green blazer and fabolous slinky green top at Topshop / Warehouse

    I could probably think of those for now. I am counting on you, yes you reading.






    Friday, November 26, 2004, 11/26/2004 01:38:00 AM

    Holy moly, the last update was on Nov 8. Talk bout updating frequently when I have the pc 24/7.

    First, I would like to start off by adding my frequent question of the week : "WHO HAS SINGAPORE IDOL SHOWDOWN FINALE TICKETS?" I would like further to contradict myself by saying Taufik might be the Singapore Idol but I am goin to vote for Sly. My whole office has been debating about it and ah ha startin from tml actually 9 hours later, I will probably stick a note at my cubicle "Vote for Sly or Die". You'll probably won't see me next week. Did I mention that Taufik was from JSS and SP? Totally steady bom beep beep.

    I have an interview with Mediacorp tomorrow! which means in 16 hours time. Ah-ha, the beacon is beckoning(is there such a word?) It's an advertising administration post where they actually slot commercials from advertising agencies and clients. Mediacorp! Do you think I'll see Sly?

    The most interesting thing that has happened to me in the last 6 months was that someone asked for my handphone number! Lol. Seriously, I find it amusing in a way, me, someone wants my number. Woohoo. Not to be really jumping for joy for the guy is a 15 year old Vietnamese. Yes, aint a peadophile. Saturday was KBOX night with Sylvia and her foreign students. They asked us out so being nice chaperones, we agreed. I tell ya, those kids sang like they never sang before. Every song that we chose, they sang it with so much gusto and with uh, lots of flatness. Oldies like Woman in love, Hotel California were chosen, which we pretty much were amazed at. Very nice boys, little shy. And no, I didnt give my number after all. *self esteem went rocket high*

    Right now, I am an Eastie officially. No more in the Westside Story. Still exploring, but getting hold of the time of the public transport. I decided not to take photos of my room after all, you'll have to come see it yourself. Haven't been using the gym and the pool yet. Dont have time, each day I'll come home from work, it's already 9pm. Swim wat. Besides living right above the pool isnt that great for my karma, I'll observe "Wah, wear bikini so slim ah" as the swimmer swims freestyle. Suddenly, she swims backstroke and floats "wah lau eh, cannot make it". Guys here tend to wear Speedos. Who WEARS SPEEDOS?! unless ya gay. One thing good bout facin the tennis court is that I get to see buff ruff guys playing tennis. *whistles* Gym facilities also cannot make it, 2 treadmill machines and 1 rowing machine. When the blinds of the gym go up, it faces the swimming pool, kids crowd around the transparent window, point and laugh. Wow, what great motivation. Imagine, running on it thinking "Shit, are they calling me fat pig? Are my fats wobbling that much?" And I swear, I haven't been to the gym. YET.

    I still have work tomorrow, it's 1.05am. I got to prepare letters to be sent to VIPs of the bank who charge a lot, spend a lot and basically are the rich and famous of Singapore.

    I like my colleagues and would miss them much. Crap, I gotta go queue up in the bank for $$.

    I've much to say but then I seem to forget. By the way, ngiap, ian, wayne and indra, you know what to do. hehe :B Being kiasu pays off.

    ps: Congradulations to Suzi to getting a Raffles Place job, Kill Bill is such a fucking bloody good movie and Sly! Sly! Sly!






    Monday, November 08, 2004, 11/08/2004 06:04:00 PM

    Sometimes all I want to do is :

    Iwanttobuymoreshoesmorejacketsmoreclothes
    fallinlovetrytomakemyhousebiggermeetguysget
    myinternetbackfastmyfamilynottobesomessy
    sometimesabiggersocialcircleyetiwillalwaysknow
    whoaremyclosestfriendsalwaysalwayslearnfrom
    mistakestryingeverythingatleastoncegetafuckin
    permenantjobsoeveryonecanstopnagginatmehave
    moremoremoremoney.

    *breathes*




    11/08/2004 05:57:00 PM

    Right now, I would describe my life as "a lack of color". Not plain, just that sometimes it would be all black, sometimes with a dash of red, green. Never yellow, could be I hardly see the sun nowadays. BUT I LOVE IT! Always a sucker for cold weather.

    Nowadays, I am busy packing, moving, cleaning and all I want to do is just drop everything and let it all settle by itself. I wish I have bigger space but I'll make do, I'll make do. House warming will probably happen during Chinese New Year so come visit without hesitation. Everything's supposed to be there is there. I am feeling very insecure because I have lived in the west my whole life and suddenly a change of environment(THE EAST) is like wow. Though I did have 4 years to prepare, but nothing comes close to actually moving away. What, no more JURONG EAST LIBRARY(goodness, goin there alone at night is so wonderful), each and every single friend whom I grew up with in the West, Jurong Point(the 2nd busiest place besides Orchard), my education, my 99 bus, 335 bus. Will I be able to gauge my time nicely from my new house to the MRT? Will this will that? Very messy, very out of my comfort zone.

    But somehow deep inside, I know I am excited and I know I will be able to make it, make everything as what it supposed to seem. I swear if I were to sell each and every of my things at $1, I will so be fucking richer than George Bush.

    Have you heard? George Bush is the President of the United States ,again. Be honest, I am a little disappointed than John Kerry didnt win. Was hoping for a new lease of legislation that can hopefully change everything.

    I've been dying to get Rooney (the band) cd and finally, HMV has it. It costs a whopping of $23 bucks with only 11 songs. Much as I am tempted to buy, it's really not worth it. I am waitin for my chinatown shop to import in!! I am contemplating to buy THE OC CD mix 2 since I have mix 1, and also Fountains of Wayne, Jet, Ronan Keating and Robbie Williams. Ah, but I won't be broke if I went on the other side of the causeway to buy, will I? heh. Rooney! Rooney! Rooney!
    Shocking as it may seems, I dont really support Sylvester as much as I do a few other times. He seems to be uh, not really rockin' as hard. But last last week's performance got me so hooked on big band, I played Michael Buble's cd every single day till monday. I can't get Moondance out of my head. Taufik might win if I allow myself to say so. I probably get retribution for saying this but I think Olinda looks weird, I just couldnt really stand lookin at her for long. Still, am a supporter of Sylvester.

    I never thought I'd say this but I am getting a little stressed over work. Uh huh, it's not as simple as I think. But it's ok, I can do it! Have money, will work. So many vouchers can come in one day, merchants kept calling to ask for payment, rude accountants are so bloody irrating and all I want to do is to flip the bird over the phone to shut everyone. I like my colleagues, a lot. Will I be able to adapt in the next new hopefully permanent environment?

    I dont know where the insecurity is comin from or it has just been suppressed for too long. Fark!! I am moving!! I feel like a tree being uprooted..

    I want to go to gigs, to sit on a swing, to exercise, to play pool, to catch a really good movie, to laugh, to find a good job. I hate the last being the most important and I am not doing it.
    My pregnant colleague and I boarded the train on our way home and we stood in the middle of the carriage and you know what, NOBODY, NOT A SINGLE FUCKING PERSON gave up the seat. Wa lau eh, I tell you I looked at everyone who's sitting down and they wont look at me and my colleague. Fuck, fuck, fuck, how inconsiderate can they get. There's this guy who stood up though, for wat i asked, oh to ALIGHT. My colleague still can smile and say thanks, I said for what? If he's really sincere, he can give up the seat long ago. Nabei. By the way, I am very adept at flippin the bird and sayin NB at the same time. Yes very proud.

    "can you read me because i'm open or because i'm open you can read me"