"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Tuesday, October 31, 2006, 10/31/2006 07:25:00 PM
i keep seeing these words "tantric sex".must be the national geographic channel i watched on monday
aptly named "wild sex"
between animals.
do you know when the male ostrich's testosterones are soaring high, the neck will turn beet red and will start running after the female. and after all high and flighty courting, the female will sit and the male will mount her and it'll be over in 60secs. and the sex will include intense head shaking from right to left from the male and do you know he has a penis that is up to 20cm long.
do you know when the dolphin's testosterones are high all the time, male dolphins have up to 20cm long penis AND they get aroused very easily. VERY EASILY. they brush up against fishes, corals, humans, anything, even their male counterparts! they can't seem to help themselves. and when they do it with females, it's just in and out. like that.
do you know when female hyenas have very very small clitoris, i seriously dont care how it is being spelt. it's always a wonder how she gives birth to twin hyenas. yup, hyenas are always born in pairs. ah.
do you know cheetahs can actually smell whether a female cheetah is ready to mate? and it's always the strong one who gets to mate, not the weak.
i wanted to continue but i fell asleep so that's all i can remember. i mean you don't get to know bout sex, on national geographic right and remember it and still blog about it. like me.
suzi, i write rubbish too. ugh. i should just stab my mouth.
ok i really like my job, i just don't like some of my colleagues. that knnccb bitch. i just had to add in about my work, if you happened to wonder how i'm doing. i mean not everyone can say that allan wu pats you on the back when saying goodbye. CHEYYYYYYYYY LIKE REALLLLLLLLLLLL. i will definitely keep it real.
the prestige. dear god, thank you for creating hugh jackman. he's the ultimate man that i will ever want. the man man of er, man. the movie is basically about 2 guys tryin to sa-bo each other till the very end. it does have really suprising moments like the clones, the simple trick, the realization that they both knew each other very well.
you know, if i am a guy, i would bed scarlett johansson in a second. i can't believe she's the same age as me. knnccb.
do you know grey's anatomy doctor george is gay in real life? do you know darren from savage garden is gay? do you know all the good guys are gay?
utter doom.
Sunday, October 29, 2006, 10/29/2006 05:41:00 PM
i just came back from the great eastern women 10k run. it was hot and tiring. i saw people panting, looking hot and flushed. which is really nice actually to see people sweatin it out. which meant all the hard work they had put in paid off. i feel them you know, the achievement they had, hey i was there with them EVERY STEP of the way.except that i didn't run.
i was there to work anyway, fine, they gave me a little motivation to start running. and god knows i hate running. -_-"
i haven't never watched infernal affairs 1-3. so i was completely freed of judgements when i watched the departed. the film was so good when you were surrounded by pussies all day, it left me macho-ed and fuck-fied. the latter you wonder? every sentence you heard in the movie ended with fuck. so much violence, so much swearing, so good. i never thought i say but leonardo dicaprio was good (he sucked in the stupid titantic show). go see.
i miss this suddenly
don't you?
doing "alone" things is great, like travelling, shopping, reading. like you dont have to talk much, or bother much. it's just so much "you".
it's so refreshing.
Saturday, October 28, 2006, 10/28/2006 10:20:00 AM
fer real.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006, 10/25/2006 11:57:00 PM
hello and fuck some bitches.i really like my job and the places it brought me. the people i meet, the people i talk to. but i dont really like my colleagues that much. even though i made a mistake twice, be nice and tell it in a nice way. dont say "i mean we been through this, i mean i dont understand why it didn't get through to you"
say i dumb say i dumb la. dont use such stupidly coated words.
and for fuck's sake, i didn't make the same mistake twice. i guess she wasn't happy that i consulted my boss and the way ALL OF US handled the situation. hey, she's the fuckin casting director whom i personally think is just a fucking smart ass. and what irked me more is that each time i buy lunch for her, she never volunteers to pay me back. in fact, the seniors has the habit of "eh u must ask the money from us leh, if not we forget". cheebye. not paiseh meh, we have to keep askin money from you. i'm so sick of volunteering to buy food for them. for fuck's sake, i'm so bloody kind too. cheebye.
every conversation we have can be heard anyway cus there's not really much of partition. so yes do imagine if i said something wrong, guess who's being screwed. ya! you know who!
facing my boss and my colleague take guts because they would never admit they're wrong. all you can do to ward of the situation is to say "okok ah my fault". to make them feel like queen, to patronize. after all this job is all bout sucking up. and artistes are such fucking delicate things, they need to be treated like stars, you know be sensitive, be intuitive, you have to learn, brush up your eq, your pr skills, do this, lick this, suck up, boot up.
and i wonder is this job right for me, am i suitable, am i right. i feel that i made so many mistakes that i was getting worried whether will i get the boot soon. all the feelings, the paranoia, the resentment, the annoyance, it's all in the package.
like fuck. i'm not even kan cheong anymore, i actually am talking slow, well starting to. i'm doin changing for fuck's sake. GIVE ME TIME TO FUCKING CHANGEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and to FUCKING ADAPTTTTTTTTT.
cheebye.
i'm still annoyed. i got blasted twice in a day for something i didn't do.
i wanna justify rippin someone's head off, no kidding.
fuck you bitchesssssssssssssssss.
Thursday, October 19, 2006, 10/19/2006 12:05:00 AM
the prime minister has "mai hump"i have "mai kan cheong"
i shall speak slowly and master the art of communication/speech.
like.....realll.y... slo...w..ly.
mai kan cheong.
knnccb.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006, 10/18/2006 12:44:00 AM
"you played me onplayed me like a clown
but I feel for you
even though I'm down"
"this time its done
it'll never feel the same
but we had some good times
guess it's sad just the same"
dreamz fm - should i stay
Saturday, October 14, 2006, 10/14/2006 03:53:00 PM
You don't have to be great to startYou have to start, to be great.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006, 10/10/2006 02:31:00 PM
you know you are lucky when you have friends to count on for everything.you know you are lucky when you have friends to bitch about everything.
you know you are lucky when they feel exactly the same way about you, which is the good side la.
i know i am lucky. i have the most amazing friends ever and i am gonna be selfish and not let them go ever.
try not meeting one of your buds for 2 months and when you finally meet, you could only talk for 1.5 hrs and only to leave for work, which is stupid really, and felt melancholic about it because u realized there is so much to be missed/updated about.
every second/min i thoroughly enjoyed, my br.
special shout outs- my amazing boat-rower,my dogget and my cashew.
we stay together. always.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006, 10/04/2006 01:12:00 AM
you know what's annoying?sprouting unnecessary things out of your mouth without thinking because you're just so blooody eager to impress.
i should be a fuckin beaver.
you know what's pissin me off?
the break out on my god damn face when my period comes.
the innate pressure to want to try to excel at my job because i have found something i like to do. you learn too fast, you get burnt. you learn too slow, you get burnt. it's never satisfying.
my boss and i are like the jockey and the horse. of course me being the horse. i'm being too fast, or maybe, i'm being such a smart-ass sometimes that i get bitch-slapped. well, not literally.
i do need to slow down. like really just lay back, take a back seat. after all, i'm new.
i mean come on, i complain about lack of work. who the fuck in the fuckin right mind complains about lack of work? right. this goes to show, i'm a horse without a brain.
and. my boss was like "oh come on, i hope i did hire the right person to groom"
GREATTTTT. don worry my boss's brash, i'm sucking it in. and maybe one day, i'll suck in so much then i'll shrivel up and just die.
enthusiasm kills.
you know what i should do?
stop caring so much.
stop thinking so much.
stop eating so much.
stop screwing up so much.
stop trying because it gets to the point when i am starting to try too hard.
stop everything.
Sunday, October 01, 2006, 10/01/2006 12:53:00 AM
each had their own sorrowshe offered help
she accepted
without hesitation
things took a turn
she offered help
he refused
without hesitation
she tried to put him
together
she tried to piece him
together
crash and burn
was all he did
disappointment
was all he be
the poison of the dart
that has deeply laid
with a heavy heart
she walked away
she ponders,
"are things going to be different"
while she waits
she can only hope, not.