"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Thursday, January 29, 2004, 1/29/2004 12:03:00 AM
I am a hypocrite, yes I am.
Smsed Nurul yesterday say to meet us at 11.30am at Salc so as to take a look at the mock page that Calvin gave us. I was being hugelyunderstanding that I would have to pry Nurul away from Bob for a mere 30 mins. They had 2 hrs break that's why. But then Sha and I waited till 11.45am,gave up and went to eat. Nope, not even a call or sms saying she can't make it. And we saw her at FC 3 buying drinks. Wow, how responsible.
As I said I being hypocritical, I didn't march up to her and confront her. I couldn't be bother although there was a sudden urge to slap both Bob and Nurul. Bob for brainwashing Nurul and being him, Nurul for letting herself being maniplulated. God, what a couple. I couldn't unglue them. 2 hours break and they spent all time eating. What the hell?! I only need her for 30 mins, couldnt they understand? Fuck them,man. And when we 3 do meet Calvin, she acted like oh, there's nothing going on.
Pissed the hell off me.
Wayne also. I haven't seen him for 3 weeks and being his good friend, I am naturally concerned. But no, not a call, not a sms. If I call or sms, he's always outside or don't reply. Sometimes I feel he is taking me for granted. He doesn't make any contacts until its near MST or exams time, he'll take all chances to be with me. I am always willing to help but I wish he'll take initiatives. Even Ian and Indra hardly see Wayne anymore.
Pissed the hell off me.
1/29/2004 12:00:00 AM
Season 3
Man, saw today's episode. Houston, we have a problem. Houston people can't sing.. I like Simon Cowell. He's brutally honest. Hey, I am not the one that is under his judgment. Hell, I know I can't sing. People, take criticisms well.
Yes, they are back!!! I can't miss this!!
I am such a sucker for reality shows. Keeps me in check.
Tuesday, January 27, 2004, 1/27/2004 04:51:00 PM
This just came in.
Nurul saved the day!!! She saved our new project into her Yahoo! Briefcase and tada the day is saved!!!! Thank goodness.
I find I could swim again.
1/27/2004 03:41:00 PM
I think I am dead. Or already I am.
There's no more pcs in the project lab. All are taken down for the Innovex 2004. We left all our data in our designated pc. Sure, it's saved in the zip disk but it's the fuckin old one!!!!!!!!
But we could also do one with http://localhost. Well 2 weeks before doomsday, gotta try. I can't feel optimistic, I can't feel at all.
Sigh. If I could sink, I would stay at the bottom of the seabed.
Sunday, January 25, 2004, 1/25/2004 05:06:00 PM
After 3.5 days of non stop visiting, it's time to slow down. This year, so far, is a little slower, softer, quieter. Not that's it bad, but just that the atmosphere is a little, well, off. At least I think so.
Went to visit my parents'friend yesterday. Uncle Sam has been a friend of our family ever since my parents and him were Pri 5. Long, yea. They all used to live in the same block, same neighbourhood. He too knew my maternal grandmother. Their family lives in HJ Heights(smells rich) and have 2 sons.
Eldest is Eugene which makes him my childhood friend and another Shawn. Man, I haven't seen them in ages. They said I haven't change a bit, which I presume is a good thing. Seeing Eugene was like whoa, you've grown dude and yea you did change. He has this bad boy look.. You know maybe I am in this stage where I look at everything and analyse whether is he hot, is he good in bed, is he kissable, will things work out.. MAN THIS IS BAD. I think I gotta control my sexual hormones. Or maybe I am too lustful. Get a grip, Jas.Damn.
Ok back to our topic. Yea just that seeing him was just cool. Maybe I should call Sylvia, who is also my childhood friend so that we could chill together. I remembered last time 3 families(mine,Eugene,Sylvia) all went on tour together. 3 childhood friends. The prob is I dont have his number. Gotta wring it from my dad who then gotta wring it from his. Hey, it's only keeping in touch.
Lust. Ugh.
Thursday, January 22, 2004, 1/22/2004 12:04:00 AM
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!!! Happy New Year!!!!!
Wuhoo!!! *bangs cymbals non stop*
Heheh it's angbaos galore time!!
Have fun guys and may this MONKEY year be fabulous for all of us!!!
*hugs all*
Monday, January 19, 2004, 1/19/2004 12:35:00 PM
because I realized I got
me,myself and I
that's all I got in the end
that's what I found out
and it aint no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gon be my own best friend
Sunday, January 18, 2004, 1/18/2004 12:29:00 AM
I'm never buying my empty cds from ATF MULTIMEDIA ACCESSORIES #04-65/66 again. Bloody dickheads. It started when Peiwen have to buy her refill ink for her printer then we went into each shop and took a look. So in a way that the refills are hung above those cds in bulk (where you can buy and burn vcds), I don't know whether it's my bag or the cds weren't stack properly, a few bulky cds fell. Great. Cuz they fell under my freaking foot. Moreover, there's this bulk where its plastic just broke, many loose cds fell out. Whoopy.
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The most fuckin annoying thing is that NOBODY HELPED. Nope, not one. Great isnt it? How helpful Singaporeans are. So in a way that I was blockin the exit, then there's this person who went TSK TSK. Such a bloody asshole. Fuck man. And people can even walked behind me and NOT HELPED. Even more annoying is that the staff there didn't come and help immediately, only came after one salesperson said Go and help leh. What the fuck man. So rude, so slow. I kept apologizing but then I didn't mean it. Even if there's loose cds, I won't take it. Aint worth it.
Seriously, this is the first shop that as a consumer, it PISSED me off. Is it because we are girls, they take us lightly? I'll never patronize again. Fucking shop, fucking staff.
Met my pri sch classmate Zhiquan at Topshop Bugis. He came over and said Hello then we made small talk. He's not as dark as he was during pri sch. And he remembers me!!!! Hahahaha. Same poly too but so far haven't met him in sch. You know, when I was talking to him, I felt a little self concious and I broke into a sweat. Damn it man. I'll sometimes get flushed or sweat when I meet someone familar not dressed my best, geddit? It's like when I dress up, I didn't meet anybody familiar but then when I dont, I did. Funny huh. Oh well.
So I was like uh, not really meeting him in the eyes. I've got self confidence just that at that moment, I wasn't ready. Sigh. I am such a dork. But it's great meeting him. At least I got his ICQ num so we can keep in touch. Yay.
Friday, January 16, 2004, 1/16/2004 03:51:00 PM
Brought my cousin Marvin to school on Wed. Yeap guys the guy that came in and sat with me is my COUSIN, for those who are wondering anyway. I had a blast going out with him. Went to school first, then we sat in the MLT, keep talkin non stop. Then I asked him Do you think Sandy is pretty? He goes No, she fails in the looks department. Hey, wasn't my words. Then he kept an eye on eye candy, pardon the pun. I told him who's who. Yes my shallow side pops out. After sch, we went Robinsons to return my shirt then Orchard for some window shopping. We just basically chilled and mostly just laughed all the way. He's a really nice guy, very gentlemanly. But then he's my cousin,bah.
Ooh. I didn't tell Sandy that he's my cousin cuz I didn't want her to go "huh, come here for wat?". And her voice would go high and irritating. One more thing, she actually told Aisha "Huh is that her boyfriend? How come she can have?" I can't have a boyfriend? I don't deserve to? The way she actually thinks and speaks without going through her airhead is actually amazing. She's also fucking shallow, like fat with fat, thin with thin. You know those combos. God, help me.
Sandy's really rude. Just because HuiHui is a really good devotee to her religion and temple, Sandy kept jabbing, not literally, at her devoteness. She would ask Huihui where's she heading and before she could answer, Sandy said oh to your temple issit? And she would just keeping making sacarcastic remarks about her being vegetarian, no place to go except the temple.. Whenever Sandy pokes fun, I just talk to Huihui, making sure that HuiHui ignores the bloody bitch. Don't you think it's damn fucking rude? She also doesn't give respect. Just like yesterday, she got mad just because I was preoccupied with the Sims on Sonia's pc. And she doesn't get along well with Serene and Sonia. And she got mad because I was like wait wait and ignored her. *rolls eyes* I can bet my ass that between she and Jasper, she's the one wearing the pants. Poor Jasper. Why doesn't she grow up? Why am I the one stuck with her like forever? The only thing that I look forward to graduation is to get away from Sandy.
Sandy's just plain irritating. When you're not talkin to her, she actually looks all over you and starts critizing. Yup, head to toe. First, your hair, your hair, your skin, your dressing, your feet. Everything is being scrutinized. It's worse than being under a CSI lab micro. Me being the first victim of everything, I swear that is the truth. Once, I got fed up and I said You're being very irritating, please stop. And she laughed. ...
Seriously. Help. Thank god for the patience that I have, to get through everyday.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004, 1/13/2004 11:37:00 AM
My 5 days stint at Robinsons are finally over. No more standing for straight 10 hours, no more Food Junction food but then no more $$. Sigh. Made new friends, got their numbers too. Let's just say it's another new experience, another something you learn about people. Made me also realized that first impressions do count, be kind to everyone and you'll be rewarded. I am a firm believer.
Had a dream about Andy the other night and no it's not wet. Fantasized that he was actually coming back to get me and live happily ever after. Am i still obssessing about him then? I didn't see him at all when I was working and that's a huge bummer. Call me shameless but I actually thought that when I will see him, he will recognize me and ask me out. Sadly, that's not gonna happen. EVER. It's time to move on, again.
Btw, go check out The New Girl by Emily Perkins. Hauntingly true and also craftily written, this book is about adolescence. You know, not a girl not yet a woman/not a boy not yet a man.. Yea well, I could relate. Do you ever want to get out of Singapore and venture out into the world? I would if I have the capital. Yea I would!
What should I do after graduation? Where should I go? Those 2 qns are the most asked now.
Options:
1. Head on to work then to University for Mass Comm. Course
2. Go to Shanghai and help my uncle for probably 6 months to a year.
I'll probably talk about my interested jobs soon.
I have such a mundane life.
Thursday, January 08, 2004, 1/08/2004 11:09:00 AM
Get this album.
1/08/2004 11:05:00 AM
A week.
School for this week was average. Like any other day, it consisted of going to class and seeing your old friends. Sometimes I feel that my class monitor is impotent. I mean his ability, not his ahem. Oh well, it's already the 4th day of this week and my friends from other classes have already gotten their books. Mine? No, we haven't. I don't know whether he's afraid to carry all the books back home if there's extra or he's just lazy. I wanted to help but then who am I in the class? I'm not one of those 'popular' ones in the class anyway and I couldn't care less. My class sucks. I am not critizing him, just that he doesn't realize efficiency is important.
I saw Mus's photographs just now. It's very professional and there's this pic with the dark clouds covering the sun and the sun rays just spilled out is just amazing. I fell in love with the pic. Photography is one of my interests but I just didn't have the money to invest in it. I dream big but then capital to start small. I am going to fuifill one of them this chinese new year, I am going to take drum lessons. Yes all, I am going to, using my angbao money.
I'm feeling a little lethargic right now.. 8am class. *yawns* 2 hour break still. *double yawn*
I am going to work tomorrow. A good thing? I hope.
Monday, January 05, 2004, 1/05/2004 05:07:00 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!
Phew 2 days of working non stop at ROBINSONS, LADIES DEPT 2nd Floor, WILL BE WORKING THIS WEEKEND, ahem ahem, man. It's over finally, well for the last 2 days.
Recognized my ex colleagues and vice versa. Made new friends too. My 2 days work consisted of changing hangers, put back clothes from the fitting room (that got to be the worst), chased guys out of the fitting rooms and making sure that our dept is neat.
There's really nothing to gripe about, just that most of the time, I worked. Really. And while I work, I talk to friends there. We can talk from everything to anything. Working there are Rowana, YenPing, Peishi, Cho Hui, Priscilla and Shi Min and Claire. Only Priscilla and Shi Min are older than me, the rest are all younger, man. I feel so old. Most are waiting for As results. Since I worked till 10pm so when it's almost closing time ard 9.30pm, we all transformed into gossip mongers..hehe hanging ard the fitting rooms.
Peiwen was at the men's dept, that's why. We will try to meet everytime for lunch and dinner. Nope, I didn't see Andy. Sometimes I overtalked about Andy to Rowana and I hate myself for that. I'll stop next week. Really. On Sat, I could hear my feet screaming. They are bundled in this stupid court shoes with this stupid heels. I threw the shoes away. I was a grouchy, in pain, pathetic sales girl. I could kiss the ground when my feet reach flat foundation, ahhh imagine the comfyness. On Sun, I wore my Dad's shoes. Sure they were big BUT at least they are comfy and not high. Who cares?
Oh well, first day of sch and went for a mere hour of MOBC(mobile communications) tutorial. The teacher's my personal tutor whom I haven't been in contact with since a year. Oops then. It made no difference whether it's my first day at sch or 31st day.. I have been going to school every day since Nov, just that there are more people. Ok a lot of people. OH well... tomorrow's just another day.
For extra info, I changed my link to http://ode-to-me.blogspot.com
Cheerios.