"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Wednesday, September 29, 2010, 9/29/2010 12:31:00 AM
and so the cycle goes on how i'm consumed with work that i basically miss out on life.i try to psych myself, i try to give myself prep talk, i try to try by trying to give myself a balance between work and life. and i fail.
i am a bona-fide workaholic, the thing is i actually like what i'm doing, maybe it's because i'm only 5 months into the job but i....like...my...job. of course i may read this again in about 3 months and shoot myself in the mouth. just like i always do about everything else. murphy's law's my best friend remember.
then i'm going to admit that i don't know how to balance, i actually like work enough not to have a life, i'm having a relationship with my PC, healthy or not, i guess it can only be measured in the longer run where monetary value counts. and this is how i convince myself every single day, of course when one day the company stops loving me, then good luck and good bye.
i hope to be a billionaire by then.
i realized that my workplace plays the politics game very well, it's like going back to school again where cliques form, teachers/leaders have every say, the formidable ones where people fear but yet respect, the clown, the bitch, the slacker and you think you gone back to school again.
i have this colleague, tall handsome boy (1 year younger), whom i've become very good friends with. he may appear to be an extrovert but he's an introvert inside, he is loyal to his friends but it will come to a point where he becomes clingy. he belongs to those that say if you leave him out of a circle, he pouts and goes why am i not invited. WHICH MAKES ME, OF ALL REASONS, GUILTY. he belongs to those type that needs attention, sometimes too much for me because i get tired of entertaining. like wooo all i need is for you to chill. and i don't need your attention all the time thank you very much, he'll garner your attention by doing silly acts then doesn't hold a proper conversation. aiyah, like a bit trying too hard kind.
but he's such a nice guy. i'm such a bitch.
so as i said, its like a school where one day, all of us will have to graduate. i'll too will graduate, hopefully with bigger pocketful of dough and a brand new spanking car. -cues i wanna be a billionaire- i think i've become one of those that if i do get a manicure, get my hair colored, i would think i'm relaxed. And soon enough, i'll become obsessed with the LVs, Guccis, Pradas of the world.
I'LL BE ONE OF ..THEM. so blah.
i am trying my best to go back to the days where being in a library is sufficient, going to the bloodbank is fulfilling and going to the zoo is fun. i have floated way too much to the surface. there's this article where i read that singaporeans are way too stressed to care and i cringed because i think the article is written for me, to slap me in the face to wake up.
i hardly see my parents during weekdays, i hang out with the same friends during rare weekends, i go back to office almost all weekends and i'm actually....ok. for now i guess when i'm still single and commitment free. though there are times when i wish i have a boyfriend so i can get laid all day. HAHA.
and because i've been so busy, i've reached the stage that i need distractions to keep me from being stagnant or routined.
like what i hope to come that IT'S MY FAVOURITE MOVIE OF ALL TIME "EAT PRAY LOVE" will say:
"Life, if you keep chasing it so hard, will drive you to death. Time - when pursued like a bandit - will behave like one, always remaining one county or one room ahead of you, changing its name and hair color to elude you, slipping out the back door of the motel just as you're banging through the lobby with your newest search warrant, leaving only a burning cigarette in the ashtray to taunt you. At some point you have to stop because it won't. You have to admit that you can't catch it. That you're not supposed to catch it. At some point, you gotta let go and sit still and allow contentment to come to you."
Saturday, September 18, 2010, 9/18/2010 04:12:00 PM
she's standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more she can take.