"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Wednesday, November 30, 2005, 11/30/2005 11:39:00 PM
What I have learnt by watchin Aeon Flux, the movie :1) Cloning is important, some way or another. Your genes, DNA, character can be replicated the exact way you are. Of course i know the meaning of cloning. Shudders for some, hurray for some.
2) Charlize Theron has a great body. I want to clone myself as her, i mean my body. Punssss intended.
3) Pretty cheesy lines in the movie : "I was looking for you", "I was waiting" You watch, then you tell me. However, I like.
4) Females fighting can be very empowering, like when you bite someone's ear lobe off.
5) The male lead has a very charming face.
6) It has great action and great sound effect. Though I couldn't follow some parts, fine I suggest readin the comics or catchin the series on mtv first.
7) This is a lousy review from me so I am goin to give it 2.85 / 5 stars. Charlize Theron's body rocks my socks off.
Btw, I caught TWIST OF FATE. Very funny and entertaining. Very whimiscal/funny lyrics and the actors sure can sing. Makes me wanna go and sign up in becoming a theatre actress though I can't act to save my life, but hey I sure can pretend. I have decided to try to catch more plays if I try to catch more money. Adrian Pang is now officially my favourite person in my company, he's funny and he gets to interview Harry Potter. There were some parts in the musical where it got slow then I fell asleep. Not my fault, they were expressing their love in such slow manner. But it's good. 8 / 10 stars.
I just realized I can fall asleep anywhere. There's this new phrase I have learnt in books. "oh fuck me, I have forgotten this!" Like there's this fuck me in front. Very cute and handy.
Eg: taking a cue from the sentence: "oh fuck me, i just realized i can fall asleep anywhere"
this is going nowhere.
Moving on, I have eaten Carl's Jr and drank Pink Dolphin the first time in my life. The beef, the beef! I have broken a certain principle, damn. So much for discipline. My colleagues have expressed disbelief that my name has appeared in the dept POOL tournament. It's demoralising but this shows that I need training. And money. And to work my ass. U know, bend over. lol, just kidding. It's on 22 Nov. Pool..kakis..needed..to help. Oh ya! The following news deserve a new paragraph on its own.
EMILY IS LEAVING! YES SIREES AND LADIES. She's leaving for greener pastures, or should i say sandier pastures. Events management she will be in (great, tat's like my dream job, part of). However, she added to me that before she leaves, she would love to attend the office xmas party. Ever the SOCIAL BUTTERFLY, i hope her wings get clipped one day. She got too lazy to calculate the costs that she had to copy off mine and if there's any errors, she will be the first to point the gun at me. and THAT PISSES ME OFF. To think i was sad in a twisted ironic way that she's leaving. She can kiss my
I am never too innocent to not to "sleep with".
Monday, November 21, 2005, 11/21/2005 09:20:00 PM
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i like ron weasly. teehee.hey all, i like the guy shooting himself because it's just wicked. no worries, i am not sad, depressed. overworked, yes. but not where i would kill myself.
thanks though for your concern.
much appreciated.
but i still like it, dont you?
i love 80s music.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005, 11/16/2005 08:36:00 PM
Monday, November 14, 2005, 11/14/2005 11:47:00 PM
i hate the way i am, puttin effort into things that i want it to work. they don't appreciate, choosing to ignore.
i get mad, but i can't get even.
they don't even care to begin with.
i am sick and tired of the shit that is brimming.
i hate the way i am putting in, always givin and never receiving.
i am selfish, so hate me.
i'll stop. i'll stop. i'll stop i tell myself.
so be it.
11/14/2005 11:45:00 PM
Sunday, November 13, 2005, 11/13/2005 10:52:00 PM
lookin at my past posts led me to think, have i grown up? have i finally cross the thin fine line between woman and girl? between an adult and an adolescent. the way i wrote when i was 18 - much angst, much crap. and surprise surprise, the way i wrote when i am 21 - much stress, much sadness, much angst, much swearing and much more crap. i guess things don't change, the good direction like all optimistic people hope for. i see the glass half empty by the way.if you were talking to me 2 hours before, things would snapped greatly because everything is just unbearable. Maybe it's because i had my facial done with face looking like mars, wearing a cap and the heat from the cap to my scalp is just not really comfortable (seriously how does Jay Chou survive with the heat?), to be seen in public places just because my parents had to go to Bugis, i haven't shit in like 3 days and the weather's just friggin hot. maybe. or it just boils down that i have pms 24/7.
and of course i am back to being human. i am a spoilt brat, really.
speaking of human, let me tell you how my emotions are these days. now that i found a motivation to take the bus everyday, never mind this old ah pek who refused to budge and would rather have us brush our groins or butts against him (he is PERVERTED, I SWEAR)btw, each time i pass him, i would give this "tsk" sound, this cute guy as i said in the previous entry, I named him Spiffy (because his clothes are so neatly pressed, no creases, mini mohawk, tanned, just so interesting you know like so young, so fresh, i shall stop) boards the same bus with me everyday. As long as i leave the house by 7.15am. I'll always sit at the back of the bus, each time the bus approaches his bus stop, my eyes automatically roves to the entrance though i had to stretch a bit as the last seat is always short and my heart beats like crazy. WACKED am i i tell u. I am such a great pretender and I wasn't in ELDDS for nothing. i don't know what got me in such a frenzy infatuation that i am beginning to hate myself for it. I don't want to become someone that i was in my sec sch days. that stupid teenaged young adolescent, those days, 14 crushes per year. -_-". see? that is why i am trying my best to refrain.
besides i think he knows that someone is admiring him. that was one i was praying like, please please please let something happen between us today. what do you know, that gods have a funny way. They let him sit beside me. Oh yes sirree, they did. It was the last row, and i was sitting at the right corner, he sat in the middle. The funny thing was nobody sat between us. Which gave us plenty of chance to do SOMETHIN. I didn't do anything, and forget all bout the pro-active shite. But i was psyched the whole ride. Btw, i told my mom about SPIFFY. she told me to wave at him and greet him when i see. -_-". she woke me up saying, "hey, dont u wanna see your boyfriend in the bus?" i was like wtf mom?!!! -_-" x 1000. but i just pretended not to hear. for the love of ...
i can't believe this entry is be how HOT BLOODED / immature i am.
my work's been okay. i found out that each time i blog, it's always about work. my boss had this big revamp on our work duties and i am assigned to this huge advertising agency. huge agency - more revenue - more work - more stress - more responsibility. if i dont meet their expectations, they'll call and ask whether am i okay. In layman terms, why u so slow?!! i was shot once and it left a bitter taste. I am not trying to claim credit here but I am also working on Sundays. Somehow, it's strangely satisfying. What is wrong with me.
I lost the momento and the inquisitive to club. I'll much prefer a live band and loud music and nothing I would love is that my company to be spontaneous,fun and to sing along with me. lol. yea pretty much it. My colleagues and I went to TAO's restaurant the other day. It was superb!! Never mind the food, the service is enough to make you think all money's worth it. 7 courses of food, straight up from the appetizer to the dessert. Every service provided was with smiles and comments asked. Okay, frankly it was nice and all, but 7 courses, 7 times. Which got me to thinking if the boss is so afraid of criticisms, where would improvements and comments go. But it's good, hey they were giving away free organizers.
Sorry to a certain friend that i have been neglecting. Now that i am slightly better in handling my work. We hang after your exams all right, that be cool.
Sometimes there are people that you are dying to hang out with and sometimes you become the person that they are dying to hang out with. Which one would you rather be in? I wish, there are times that I have the strength, the money and all the time to just talk and catch up with all my friends. The ones that i love their company for. Perhaps one day, when I actually make do. I tend to forget procrasinating is my talent. sigh.
the following paragraph is not a sign of depression or what so ever.
i woke up one day and suddenly i realized. I have no talents. Like zilch, nada. Okay fine, procrasinating is one. I can't sing, dance, play any instruments, sometimes i think i suck at my job, i can't host, design and so many more. I am not really insecure, ok fine maybe i am. Hmmm. I need the world to reassure me that I am here for a reason. To reproduce? hur hur.
somebody said i was INTERESTING.
so cool.
Thursday, November 03, 2005, 11/03/2005 12:10:00 PM
Why am I feeling guilty about not returning to the office on a FRIGGIN HOLIDAY? I knew I finished my work up to Saturday where tomorrow, there will still be there to work. Not much airtime left, i know but still today is a HOLIDAY. It's like an obligation. Then what's the point of a PUBLIC HOLIDAY? Btw my parents insist my boss know nuts about us being there. Why is work consuming me like that.
Seriously I am so fucked up.
My parents are going to Malaysia and my heart's 3/4 there.
I wish my office will burn.
"I don't work in an office. I work in Hell with fluoroscent lighting".
papa roach - be free
Woke up and I feel like shit
I don't remember last night, I'm getting sick of this
I hit the bottle when I got off stage
And got piss drunk stupid and went in a rage
I think I mighta got into a fight
Because my knuckles were bloody and I don't feel alright
I hit the bottom and I don't even care
Some say I'm going to hell but I'm already there
[Pre-Chorus:]
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
[Chorus:]
I wanna be free from this ball and chain and
Be free from this life of pain and
Be free from this ball and chain
I wanna be free from you
Now I'm full of guilt and shame
I can't point a finger cause theres no one to blame
So I say I'll never do it again
But when the sun goes down, you are my only friend
I'm thinking I am starting to see
I have become everything I never want to be
I'm really getting sick of myself
Cause when I look into the mirror, I see somebody else
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus x2]
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
So sick and tired of being sick and tired
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
So sick and tired of being sick and tired
[Chorus x2]