"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005, 8/30/2005 11:54:00 PM
i just want to say i have decided to like my new GCEO. He's friendly, open and doesn't look at all stuck up. Based on his photo in the straits time, that's the image i am stickin my mind to. besides, my dad played golf with him ONCE( wah, like so ya ya) and my dad said he's nice, no airs about him. Additional points. Besides the point when i am never going anywhere near him,any suggestions will still have to through a series of high authorities. i hope my company will prosper, prosperity means $$ means $$$$$$$$$ for me. pay raise?!! mr chow!!bad dream yesterday night. supposed to be one huge dream but these 2 miniee ones stuck out the most.
1) i was being attacked by a huge and i mean huge, and long cockroach. isnt it funny when u think about it, in batman begins, batman faced his fears by facing er bats. but u dont see me facing my fears but facing cockroaches, thus turnin into cockroach girl right. imagine, CR GIRL. eew. anyway back to my stupid dream, yeap. the attack came in the form of my cousin who threw in my face. next thing i knew, i screamed, tore the cockroach off my face and stepped on it and went to swear not to speak to my cousin again. and whether or not i did kill him, i don't remember. besides the next dream followed.
2) i saw my dad with a fat lady on his arm. god, that was the ultimate dream-waker. i mean affair. fat lady. FAT LADY. i have nothing against them but. SHE WAS CLINGING TO HIM. major wtf. She was like "sayang sayang". that's uber high level of disgust. anyway, they broke away when they saw me. The girl had the cheek to look sad, %*!@#! so i walked away, turned to my dad shouting "YOU FUCKER!!" Just don't ask why.
The anger in my dreams must have gotten to my because when i woke up, i found out that i have teeth marks in my inner lip. Yeap, i bit down hard.
freaky. but true. anger management. "learn to control your anger in dreams"
had some pretty tough shit goin on this month. coincidence. maybe, you never know. everything happens for a reason. it just all boils down to who you are, what you are, where you are and how high do you set expectations. "you think you know someone and then suddenly you look at them and you don't know them at all."
expectations, expectations, expectations.
i tell u. emily wants the ch u superstar tickets so bad that she's annoying me. WAD ELSE IS NEW. I mean she's been asking everybody in ch u dept for tics, from sales to coordinators, she kept asking and asking and asking. high annoyance can. it's like she's desperate to go, will weilian or kelly go to her and say "oh emily, thanks for coming, thanks for your efforts in coming, oh thank u thank u". -_- besides i noticed her tendency to ask for everything like posters, cds, tickets. like wtf. u kinda deemed urself as "desperate". i mean working in such industries tend to get exposed but dont ask for things. people will remember favours and if you dont fulfill them, they'll never live it down. no sour grapes, no jealousy. just annoyance. high pms alert, oh wait. i have pms everyday. but use ur blain, use ur blain.
you know how some songs remind you of people. people that you want to tell how you feel but you know that you can never tell them your true feelings because you already know what's goin to happen. some songs do that. no wait, some songs will let you have the deepest desire, just to tell them that you [insert blank] the person.
i just need that something to make everything whole again. will you help me.
Saturday, August 20, 2005, 8/20/2005 04:24:00 PM
just be yourself - the most useless piece of advice in the English Language.Friday, August 19, 2005, 8/19/2005 01:51:00 PM
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is
I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
Monday, August 15, 2005, 8/15/2005 12:50:00 AM
A motivational speaker started out by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, 'Who would like this $20 bill?'
Hands started going up.
He said, 'I am going to give this $20 to one of you
but first, let me do this.
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked, 'Who still wants it?'
Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, 'What if I do this?'
And he dropped it on the ground
and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
'Now, who still wants it?'
Still the hands went into the air.
My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE.
You are special- Don't EVER forget it.'
If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring.
Count your blessings, not your problems.
And remember: amateurs built the ark, professionals built the Titanic. One remained afloat.
taken from WOB
Sunday, August 14, 2005, 8/14/2005 01:22:00 AM
sometimes i wonder if i am lemony snicket, i am goin through a series of unfortunate events.it sucks so bad, i wonder wad have i done wrong.
karma.
somehow i can't stop looking at this
i'll tell soon.
Monday, August 08, 2005, 8/08/2005 10:08:00 PM
welcome to carnival@marina.
where skies are perfectly grey.
and suddenly, a huge banana appears.
so does jack and sally.
as we posed.
and posed.
we realised that Singapore is 40!!
Happy 40th birthday, my country.
8/08/2005 12:45:00 AM
i just felt empowered to blog at this hour.i was watching Oprah on star world and the guests for that night were Jon Stewart and Cameron Diaz. Before I could comment on the show, i would like to add that the talk shows i watch is only David Letterman on ntv 7 (a malaysia channel) when i was living in jurong west (20th floor). Sadly i dont get it now, must be the east and the level (10th floor) - it's only half the leverage. Anyway, decided to catch Oprah. Jon Stewart is a funny guy, he is. He hosts "The Daily Show with Jon Stewart" which i think only airs on weekend nights and it's not very current, i think. Or i donno when it's showin la. I like him. Anyway that's a starter. The real reason i want to blog now is because of Cameron Diaz. She's hosting this MTV show called "Trippin". She travels around the world with her famous pals to know bout the endangered and the world. Basically, she's having fun travelling on a sponsored trip. Aye who doesnt want. bloody hell. Back to my topic, I like her show and i like her. I am such easily influenced. She gives off this air that let's be fun and spontaneous, i'm not stuck up u noe, im cool and all. The way she sits when Oprah's interviewing her is like so relaxed, u noe just chill. i like her attitude then, BUT after all of wad i said. DO U THINK I REALLY KNOW HER? chey. like i know her in real life. oh well.
I really really really want to go to see ELLEN DEGENERES live. Hello?!! Ellen? If u do see this, can send me ticket to watch you live?!!! I saw clips of her talk show and it's damn funny can.
i think i am over my infatuation with Howard. yes sireee. U see, i'm young, eager and available and i shouldn't settle for someone that i can't get. HAHA who am I kidding. i want to lament about my love life can. Wait, it's non-existent. i know, i know. like very bimbotic and desperate. But i still want to say. i cannot find somebody to have this "high school crush" on, tsk. like so disappointing. Dont tell me "aye u still young la". it's ok for now, i'll just haha u. But if down the road, and u still "aye u still young la", i would give u the finger and then haha u. I am currently working IN BOUND TO THE COMPUTER all day, how to make new friends like that? Wad if i don't meet somebody?!! shit, i am living in a society where this has to happen. errr. this is the probably the only post u see where i whine bout my love life. ok bye.
i was reading xiaxue's blog and it came across that she actually knows xiao yu who was my pri school friend. such small world. i was wondering whether she knows guo wei as well. hooohoo. big thoughts, small dreams.
i think i need to attend conferences on how to spend your money wisely, how to not spend money at all, where money comes from really, start saving before any regrets, stop your expenditure now, stop abusing your card, do you really need the things you buy etc.
wah. can't believe i have blogged so much. can't go sentosa tml, sorry chicken. how bout marina south? hello. hello.
no work tml, been's gnawing though. wad's happening to me? guilt guilt.
can't stop listening to ciara. "ohhhhhhh" first lady of crunk. -yea, word up-
Saturday, August 06, 2005, 8/06/2005 06:48:00 PM
i was transported from the ISLAND to arrive on mainland to crash a WEDDING. And forget Adam. Forget Michael. I am heading for Ewan. I want to buy a kilt and blow bagpipes and speak in a scottish tilt. wheeee. 
Life on the ISLAND was great!!!! Who said a movie about cloning has to be all boring and dull?!! Damn, if i know the movie was that good, i should buy the dvd when i had the chance. Of course u know where to get such movies, tsk tsk. Besides the party at the WEDDING was superb too. I went with a low expectation, but surprise suprise, u get pretty funny results. Vince Vaughn, u have the right amount of kinkiness and the way u speak, my my. Rachel Mcadams was good too. Forget mean girls, wait till u watch this, it makes u wanna go watch RED EYE.
damn. can u hear the cash register and bank howling.
speaking of $$. pretty much broke now, since i spent it almost all on food. The cycle repeats where ur weight sinks and ur wallet lightens. PS has this Manhattan Fish Market rest, it serves pretty good fish (pun! pun!) and huge lemon tea. $$. This week 8 days has a review. hohoho. I never knew how much i sucked at pool again. I thought i had all the practice!!!!! "a good worker shalln't blame the tools" - i thought the table sucked. been eating too much rich food....exercise....willpower....lethargic....but loving it. :B
work's bristling, with the long weekend looming, ok it's already here. can u hear SINGAPORE roar? Ain't going nowhere. Just taking time off to chill, just hang. Besides I refused to be home late nowadays. This is the month, man. Wad? Are you saying I am chicken-shit? Yes. Btw wad is up with Raintree pics ?!! Coming out with the MAID in the 7th month?!!! The trailer itself is already scary, imagine the lights down, thinking the movie is gonna start soon and the trailer airs. Then you started asking ard "is the right movie?" TSK. The duration's pretty long. Wtf. Besides, each time the trailer airs, i'll divert my eyes elsewhere. lol. One more thing, Incredible tales is showing again. Can't believe they are showing this particular month. What is wrong with my company?
natasha's off to japan. Konichiwa. Joyce's off to China. Ni Hao. my uncle and family's off to Australia. howdy mate. i'm off to singapore. hello and $*#%!#~*$^
i should be happy being here.
maybe i'll try the marina south carnival, get soaked up since i got monday off and all. i can't stop thinking of work. holy shit. u think i should work half day on monday then? it will ease my constant gnawing. nah. forget it. i'll suffer on wed.
I'm LOST. can't believe i have actually completed my marathon in a month. now i have nothing to look forward to on sat. hehe kidding. sheesh. damn, when can Season 2 air?
oh yes, i'm getting along fine with my colleagues. Brayed in laughter like a donkey during dinner, i taught them how to say "whore". LOL. Ok, Emily time : I received this email regarding the Paris Hilton ad, so i opened u noe. and suddenly, she said "no, u shouldn't watch this, watch the other one first". i turned around and slapped her for invading my privacy. HAHA. no i didnt after all. i just hahaed and did nothing. siao issit.
Syl, i hope everything works out for you. dont't worry, this is only a passing storm, it will clear up and skies will open. u know where to call and find me.
till then, be good this month.