"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Wednesday, October 29, 2003, 10/29/2003 11:24:00 AM
I couldnt sleep well last night and I woke up twice in the middle of the night.
And no, it wasnt those vampires, ghosts and beasts eating me those kind of nightmares.
I dreamt I was taking an English test for A levels(wth) and the whole paper just consisted of an essay, a letter writing and fill in the blank questions. All to be completed within 1.5 hours. And I was like taking my time throughout the whole essay only!! My whole English future consisted of that paper!! Then when I handed to the teacher, I woke up. What the hell man. I think I am stressed out for my upcoming BBC paper. Come on, I practically failed in my dream. *shudders*
Next dream after I went back to sleep was my sec sch 4/4 class was gathered in this huge hotel room. Then all of us were sitted in this straight line watching tv.. Watching MTV to be precise. Then Kylie Minogue's new video SLOW was revamped and she became this rugged chick instead of lying on the floor. Those who watched the video should know. Then we were like laughing and talking just like old times.. Man.. then when it was time for us to sleep all the girls got up then Ecstasy was like playing with my slippers, hiding it. (Never changed..tsk tsk) I got up and asked for Hafiez. Sheesh of all people btw him and Nurul were not uh them, they were kids. Like they went back in time.. Uh yea.
I left 4 chapters to study at this very moment. It's time to gear up more. *shudders for that failing thought*.
Peace out and good luck to all those taking exams!!
Sunday, October 26, 2003, 10/26/2003 02:48:00 PM
I only read chapter 1 of BBC and midway of chapter 5. This is not looking good. At all.
I feel like shit. My exams' on 31 Oct and only 1 and a half chapter. Great.
I am going to my friend's house soon for Deepavali greetings. Thank goodness she lives near me. I have to drag my ass back and study after. Seriously after.
I am typing like a monotonous robot and my stomach hurts like shit.
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Saturday, October 25, 2003, 10/25/2003 02:35:00 AM
Hey peeps as yall would notice I changed my layout!!!! It's refreshing for a change instead of my old one. That was just damn bloody bright.
Now this I like. This is the Blackout. The longest BLACKOUT to occur in the States this year.. Similar to me
Hope yall enjoy it.
I gotta go shut my eyes.
Friday, October 24, 2003, 10/24/2003 11:42:00 PM
For starters, I would like to wish all Indians including the President of Singapore Happy Deepavali! Special shouts out to Hari, VJ and Vicky.
Spent my day watching Party in the Park 2002 then head out Tanah Merah to check my new house.. Later convinced my parents to go Robinsons Warehouse Sales at Expo Hall 5. God, there's gotta to be like a million people in there man.. so many freaking people. Things there were quite reasonable i guess hmm but the bedsheets linen got the best bargain discount of 100 bucks. My mom even got the big shopping bag and started to put things in but once she saw the queue line, down the bag goes. The queue line was in a maze yes it was that long. We got bored then outta there. And they say the economy was bad. Yeah right.
We went to Sheng Siong to buy provisions and Little India for bryani dinner. The chicken was delicious man. Peeps, the place is called Blue Diamond. Good thosai and bryani served. Heaven..
Home we headed and watched Survivor. I am glad Trish was booted out. That back stabbing bitch, thinking of voting Rupert out.. Jon is another one that is gonna get his ass kicked. I love Rupert and Christa!! Osten is one hell of a weakling.
My first exam is gonna appear on 31 Oct and I only studied one chapter. Great. It's not that I don wanna study but the 'bored' feeling kept coming. Sigh I have to motivate myself anyway. Does anyone have a way to curb that feeling?
Watched Me Against the Music video. That video is sizzling hot baby.. and the dance moves are so smooth. Kudos to Britney! Wuhoo.
Wednesday, October 22, 2003, 10/22/2003 11:20:00 PM
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Monday, October 20, 2003, 10/20/2003 09:50:00 AM
I just finished my CSW role play meeting. Let's just say that it went ok. Just ok. I knew I forgot something and yea I did. I forgot to write the name plates for everyone including myself. So I rushed to take paper from the photocopy machine (I stole!!) and just did it in the nick of time. Sigh. The morning didnt start off so well. I cant believe I really forgot.
My weekends were spent slacking and more slacking. I chilled at home the whole Saturday watching Legally Blonde 2. Pretty ok I guess, not as inspiring as the first one. I went out with my mom and brother yesterday to my uncle's house in Sengkang then to Plaza Singapura. I bought Dove Shampoo and Conditioner. ahahahhaaha now I feel like a traitor since I always dissed those bimbos ads. Damn but it sure made my hair feel soft.. Then we just walked and walked. We ate at Aijisen Restaurant for dinner and we sat at the window seat. Everyone was looking in. I felt like an animal in the zoo. I felt scrutinised. But when people walked past, I purposely slowly put food in my mouth. hah.
Friday - My BBC assignment went ok I guess. After all, I did answer correctly on the 2nd attempt. I think I pass. THINK. I was freaking out for BBNT lab test, I kept memorising and memorising the steps and the anycast and DLE address. During the test itself, I forgot the step and thank goodness Mr Loh helped me. He told me to initialize the booter.. phew thank goodness and I got 80. I calculated already.. and I need 6 more marks to pass BBNT.
I met Peiwen after that and we shopped around for Serene's present.. I got her a tank top and a dancing robot. Sorry, money's a little tight this year. Hell money's always tight. So we walked around Orchard then went to Bugis to shop. After that we got bored and took a bus to Chinatown since we were gonna to eat dinner outside. Then we walked to Lau Pa Sat there. After that, we walked again to Esplanade where we just stood right behind to see an outdoor play. There were really lots of people standing around us. Then we got bored and decided to walk away suddenly the actress was like dont dont come sit and watch. Everybody was looking at us. We got embaressed and really turned and walked the actress said aww they are walking away. I was like aw man.. And while aw maning, I walked right into a photo. The flash just went off like that. Sheesh. But both of us were laughing and laughing. Then we walked to Marina Square and tata home we went.
Interesting. My head hurts. Sigh.
Thursday, October 16, 2003, 10/16/2003 07:05:00 PM
Up down left rightSometimes I dont know
Which way to choose
The right or wrong
Indecisive is my middle name
Which I am ashamed
Then I would think
No it's not.
Isnt it funny how
I changed my mind
Fast and swift
You didnt realise
I am sorry
To see things turn out
The way it shouldnt be
You could just leave it
With others I'll be ok
I'll be free
I'll be me
Sunday, October 12, 2003, 10/12/2003 12:21:00 AM
I love John Mayer!!!!!!! His new cd is way cool!!! Love this song, check it out :
New Deep
I'm so alive
I'm so enlightened
I can barely survive
And not in my mind
So I've got a plan
I'm gonna find out just how boring I am
And have a good time
'Cause ever since I've tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine, I've been cool
With my new golden rule
Now is the new deep
Down with the old me
Talk is the same cheap
It's me
Is there a God
Why is He waiting
Don'tcha figure it out
When he knows my address
And look at the stars
Don’t it remind you just how feeble we are
Well it used to I guess
'Cause ever since I've tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine, I've been cool
With my new golden rule
Now is the new deep
Down with the old me
Talk is the same cheap
It's me
I'm a new man
I wear a new cologne
And you wouldn't know me
If your eyes were closed
I know what you'll say
'This won't last longer than the rest of the day'
But you're wrong this time
You're wrong
Now is the new deep
Down with the old me
I'm over the analyzing tonight
Stop trying to figure it out
You try to figure, you try to figure it out
It will only bring you down
You know I used to be the back porch poet
With my book of lines always open
No and all the time I'm trying
Never gonna find the perfect rhyme
For heavier things
Thursday, October 09, 2003, 10/09/2003 08:19:00 PM
Friendster is the 'in' thing right now. I just realized.
10/09/2003 06:19:00 PM
Update time!!!
Just got back from school 30 mins ago. Let's see. School was fun, especially fun. First Sha and I headed for project lab to meet Calvin for fyp. We didnt touch FyP this week becuz of techno, We intended not to meet next week and keep fyp low profile becuz we're gonna be really busy. Exams, lab tests, assignments. Such fun. Went for techno lecture wow Wayne and Wanyi came. Those 2 seldom came so we really had fun talking jibbering cocking laughing. The usual. Wayne kept talking about me and Bryan. I was like what the? I didnt told Sand about it thats why i wanted to keep it low key. Then he kept saying Bryan this Bryan that. I was like shut up man. As usual he was a pain in the ass. But its ok it don happen very often. I updated Wanyi on Nurul and our life and movies. Isnt it a pity that their friendship is gone like that? Man. Then we brought our laughter to
Foodcourt 3. Hahah Indra got ignored. hahahahahah See lah told you go add more SUnperk points. Bring donno what special girl? hmm. Better say. Hiagen diaz voucher hahahahah. As usual me, sha and Indra attended. Half took notes half was like chatting away. Indra fell asleep. PIg sia
Ooh I went to Orchard with Bryan yesterday. Had fun too. We just talked like buddies, anything under the sun. Went to Paragon the new extension part we both were like woah wow all the way. I was dressed in punkwear he beachwear. So imagine. We were passing United Colours of Benetton then he liked the shirt so he went to try. And he bought it straightaway!! I was like what the.. that was fast. I would spend the whole time thinking and he just got it like that *snaps finger* 49 BUCKS leh. Wah lau damn ex loh. I gaped. So we walked then we came across Bakers' Inn then I remembered Wayne working there so I just popped by to see. He was and I said HI then Bryan was like HEy yOU WORKED HERE AH. People turned. Man.. I was like shhh. So we waited outside wanting to talk to wayne then he like busy busy then never talked to us so we left. Hmm but he did look good in his uniform. Then we just popped over to Taka.
Wanted to buy Cosmogirl with Britney on it. Didnt carry it so we walked ard. He went to eat so ok I accompanied him. He was meeting his friend at 6.30pm so I said why not I go home first then he said acc him until 6.30pm. I was like sigh ok loh. There was something amusing I found that he loves to shop as a guy. Instead of I trying clothes, I was the one holding his bag for him while he tried on. Went to Levis, British India, Top shop. I gotta admit that his body is good. NIce.
But he irritated me at the end. In the midst of him eating, he said his friend wasnt meeting him anymore so I tot yea we can go home together. So we were walking to Orchard MRT he suddenly changed direction and said he gotta shit. I was like nvm i acc u then he said he was meeting his friend. I was like what the fuck? you told me you not meeting then suddenly changed. So i tot was he lying in the first place? I mean was telling the truth hard? I am not unreasonable. Its not i am angry just irritated. He could have just told me the truth why go and lie? sheesh. And he said he will call me in the night to talk.
Miracously, he did call. But I didnt pick up. I was dead tired. To sum it up, hanging out with him was cool and fun. LIke buddies. Is it because of the relation that we are born on the same day just that he one year older? hmm. oh ya he mentioned that we should go prom together? I was like uh. I am not sure whether i want to go to the prom or not. Oh well. he's all right.
Now everyone's like ooh is he your bf? I keep telling no no no. People please lah. He's not. *rolls eyes*
I love Kara's Flowers CAPTAIN SPLENDID. Go download. Will I be sued for encouraging people to download songs? *blinks blinks
Sunday, October 05, 2003, 10/05/2003 12:42:00 AM
I am in a
mood.
I am being a bitch.
Thursday, October 02, 2003, 10/02/2003 07:01:00 PM
Today was not a good day.
i woke up with my dress code which was slacker ware. In the end after looking myself in the windows for a few times, I found out that I looked like a slob. yellow polo tee with 3/4 pants. Hello, mind says slacker mIrror says slob.
anyhows, my new also yellow sneakers gave me 2 freaking blisters. HURT LIKE MAD, GRUMBLED LIKE CRAZy. I didnt wear socks so I walked around retardly. I am such a dork.
One thing that came out of today was that my fyp had improvements. Thank god. At least we had something worth showing everyone and Calvin. Code finding my next mission. I took a break aftering improving the interface and started walking around in the project lab. In came Sandy who said aiyo you got do project meh like see you do nothing. i merely said nothing and glared at her. I seriously glared. She was like dont come glaring at me ok. I was like WHATEVER. She's such a bimbo loser. No big brains. no wait, no brains at all.
Went for techno lecture. As usual,met our gang and chilled. Cocked all the way. I still insist Indra and Ian should go take the hip hop class together. Haha. Let's all keep our word and go watch UNDERWORLD together!!!!! really. Hope Indra use phone often to chalk up his sunperk points.
During BBC lecture, Bob and Nurul sat in front of Sha and me. Wah I was like what the.. so for the rest of the lesson, I paid attention and become a temporary mute student.
Nowadays sometimes I feel that I am losing myself. felt my confidence is slipping away. Felt I am gaining vunerability instead of strength. Like things couldnt go my way and pressure all around. Somtimes I tell myself not to succumb to it but I lie. Nobody understands anyway.