"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
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Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
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Saturday, July 31, 2004, 7/31/2004 02:56:00 PM
My dad is addicted to Yahoo! POOL!! Wah lau eh.. of course its a bad thing cuz whenver I want to use the laptop, he would say wait ah.. Then I would wait till I fall asleep..Tsk, then he play nvm but it's he chatting that bothers me. Hello, can u smell cyber or some whatever he might be talkin about? Dammit. I shouldnt have taught him how to play in the first place, my bad, my dad.
I can't stand myself falling asleep whenever my fav show comes on. I would watch till the last 15 mins where the last commercial shows, then I just close my eyes for a while and when I wake up, it's the FREAKIN END!!!!! Great. It happened with the OC and nip/tuck. blardy hell
Oh ya!!! I went for dinner with my pri 4 best friend, Yiwen (also known as Aedes mosquito). We ate at Breekz and it was fun!! She like those chinese chinese girly kind of girl then so naggy, so like auntie!!! It was hilarious watchin her convey questions with the waiter and the sales girl. Ah, she perked up my night.
Last night, went to Chinatown with Sandy. She introed to me this sundry shop which stuff like conditioners cost only $3.80 and perfume like $33-70. Real stuff, cannot bluff. My JLo Glow perfume costs $50!!! I am coming for you, just wait. Then I introed her the Visma Cd shop at Yangtze shopping center(u noe the RA theater).. hehe she went crazy over the cds there. Bought 3 at one go and I laughed cuz she's so auntie.. but then we all still work at Raffles place.
Work's work, work's money. Been getting okay, used to it at least I just listen to music all day. Staring at the pc for like 6 hrs is a little eye sore but I'm ok. Actually it's not ok, my eyes are so bloody tired and every time I knock off, I feel like I work in a warehouse for 10 hours. But I'm cool. really.
My cousins are coming to stay for a month! Yay!! Thanks Ian for acc me to eat.. Indra tsk tsk. so disappointed. heh I need to exercise..
Condolences to Zubaidah whose sister passed away.. This month is a rollercoaster.
One last thing before I sign off, I just wanna shout this out and plan to make a t shirt out of it:
I LOVE DRUMMERS.
ps: I am such a dork
Sunday, July 25, 2004, 7/25/2004 02:39:00 PM
Thanks to Sylvia and her sister Michelle, I have experienced Nan Hua Secondary School famous Dance Society. Yup, they won several awards for it alone. A little well known fact in the West of Singapore, heh. Anyway, Michelle was performing so Syl invited me to go watch.
Very nice, very "high" feelings everywhere. Shit, I wish I was in sec sch where the school spirit is strong and I was much YOUNGER. All the performers were shouting hip hip hurray like 5 million times. Pretty annoying and exciting at the same time. So we arrived and there were not much seats left at the back so we sat in the middle reserved for VIP. But what the heck, we didnt know and thank god they didnt check out tickets. muhaha.
First to start off was the Band Ensemble. Man, it reminded me of my pri sch eca (now aka cca) where I played this instrument which is the huge version of the xylophone. Pretty good i shall say and that's when you know the show really starts. I shall just mention the highlights.
I tell you, my favourite performance of the night was the Dance Society where Sec 1 and Sec 2 male members have to be do acrobatic stunts as training in order to be in the "hot" cca. They jumped, they bounced, they somersaulted, they cartwheeled. And they were so cute!!! So small sized, awwww. The audience includin us were oooh ahhh and weet weet all the way. Not mention the appalauses.. great!! ps: syl and I are not pedophiles.
Then got chinese orchestra, chinese cultural society, eldds(my sec sch cca) - the eldds drama was crap lah, don even know what they performing and all I could hear was the snakes hissin on medusa head by someone backstage. Also got guzheng ensemble and harp ensemble. Yes, Harp!! Very ethereal feeling, very nice, very soothing but can see the performers have to keep twitchin the chords. There was this chinese recital where 2 of the performers coordinate with each everywhere.. I was amazed. Do you realize whenever those chinese orchestra, guzheng ensemble their uniforms all like waitresses? Nope, I don feel the "China" feeling, more like Can I have the menu please?
Michelle is in the Dance Society(the "hot" cca), I couldnt recognize her on stage cuz they all looked alike, tsk. The dance was vigorous, exciting. It's about those 1930s where the students got buns on their head then the teacher very old (think zhu ying tai that era). So it was the finale and we all got out into the lobby. I tell ya it's hilarious, there;s this person who thought both of us were the producers of the show!! And she stared and smiled saying it's a great show huh, then we smiled and agreed. Hhahahahhaha. Man.... must be our outfits. V.I.P..
Held at NUS Cultural Centre, I concluded that it was very entertaining. Woohoo! Wanted to play pool after that but no car home. Darn
Tonight's X MEN night!! Hugh my Jackman!
Tomorrow's a brand new day at work, can't wait. Right, who am I kidding?
Friday, July 23, 2004, 7/23/2004 09:17:00 PM
Yes yes yes update updates updated. It's time for you to read my life, my fans. (*does the superstar wave)
I have been working and am WORKING. Finally, I know. It's a temp job at OCBC Raffles Place for 3 months. It's better than nothing and I get paid! It's an admin job, u know, I used to say I can't stand a 9-5 job BUT. Aiya, bo pian. Uh I work from 9 -6.30 though. Heh. Anyway today concluded the first week of my job and let's just say I have a monotonous job, I do not talk much and I eat alone. I ate alone for the first 3 days fine a sign of independence but I can't help feeling pathetic. Hello can u say LOSER? Then nobody talked to me also, I being the only temp staff at the marketing department. My supervisor is this hip person who has 2 tattoos, nose stud and she smokes. Woohoo. Sometimes a bit act cute but ahem I'll try not to notice. The rest all permanent staff and yuppies. Nope, they didnt ask me to lunch, just breezed by well at least today and on wed, 2 people asked "arent you goin to lunch?" And I replied why wanna invite ah. NO LAH!! kiddin. I just smiled and said "1". Almost wanted to add, wanna join me? But paiseh. So I sit everyday, facin the pc doing data entry. I think I am going crazy. I eat for an hour and go back to my desk ALL BY MYSELF and sit for 7 hours. I am describing my work, not complaining. Data entry is boring, monotonous, redundant, eye sore but one thing is good, I know the keyboard number pad by heart. No cute guys, at least there was. 4 of them left today, bummer. I am deprived of talking, I answer questions not talking. No wonder my breath stinks sometimes from NOT TALKING!!! I hope new staff will come in and I will be friendly dammit! I still have 2 months and 21 days. Money money money, Jas.
sidenote: Sandy works at Cecil Street so it's near Raffles place. I'll be joinin her, darn it seems that I can't get away. Angeline works at OUB or UOB i forgot, when I first heard I was like so near?! BUT it's at Novena there.. Sigh. Wau lau, all my friends, come find me lah. Lunch time 1pm to 2 pm. *major hint*
Chilled with Syl and Eugene on Friday. Thank you both so much for the Sakae Sushi Treat!!!!! Delicious bento meal!! And the beautiful necklace/choker!! Very oh so cool. Watched Super Size Me, very provocative, will lead u to thinking oh my god, is it really? But then I still eat Mac's so I am a hard to convince member of the public. But definitely LESSER and more exercise. If you count the 10 mins in stupid heels everyday walk to and fro from Lakeside. 7 hours of sittin! okok. Another shot of pool, I tell ya I think I am getting better at shooting. I dont fumble that much but I still need to improve on my aim. Pool sool my cool. Hhahahha. Anyway thanks again to both of you so much for Thursday lunch!!! Thank you both for takin time out to eat with me at Maxwell. The banana leaf char kway teow was so delicious but wearing my painful but beautiful shoes wasnt. Blardy hell, 2 huge blisters at the back of my foot. The price u pay for beauty. Btw, wonderful driving, Eugene. Oh ya thanks both also again for listening to me blabber non stop for the hour. Needed that, kudos. *hugs both*
The wake was quiet, Japanese Buddhism ritual. Saw 1/4 of 4-4 class which consisted mostly of girls cuz the guys are in NS. Saw half of 2-2 class which consisted of guys. Duh. Anyway, I was in the same class as my exclassmate so I knew everyone. I didnt talk to them all mostly my sec 4 class. Caught up in some mini reunion, isnt it ironic? Comforting in a way, supposedly. The scene at Mandai Crematorium was heart wrenchin.. Sigh. I havent yet to see Zub though.. Hmmm.
Thanks Aisha for accompanyin me to talk on the phone while I eat ALL BY MYSELF. heh. Part time gf... ooh. Thank goodness for free incomin calls. ting ting ting. Reading this book called Doing Good by Pamela Morsi. Inspiring, curb me. Weekends are such beautiful days, you think? Yes you and I both know why. Cuz they are WORK FREE DAYS. Woohooo I need to buy more work clothes, nice formal sandals which has minimum heels as possible, shit I love my black pointed shoes but blisters. I need to buy pointed shoes with the smallest heel and the smallest budget. My red handbag almost givin way. Dammit it, I need to be more cool.
ps: i stub my big toe like 50 times a day. nabei. hey, it rhymes!
jassie from the block.
Thursday, July 15, 2004, 7/15/2004 01:14:00 AM
And I thought bad news couldnt travel fast.
My sec sch classmate, Yuhong committed suicide. Yea, he jumped down from his flat or floor. Reason could be too stressed from NS.. but why jump? Sigh.. My friend was like he jumped, I was WAT? Then he started crying.. I was too stunned. I put down the phone and called Peiwen and I cried.. I couldnt take it.
I thought of Zubaidah and Yuhong. It just hit me like damn! My friends, my classmates, my schoolmates. The procession's tml and I asked most of classmates who werent in Tekong to come, even Mr Wiiliams and Mr Low.. Last respects tml.
Zub, please get well soon and I'll be prayin.
Yuhong, I guess we will never know the real reason. Rest in peace.
Wednesday, July 14, 2004, 7/14/2004 02:39:00 PM
I really really wish my friend Zubaidah, her sister and her mom will get better. Please pray for her for she's in a condition where it'll break your heart. Please pray for I did, and will always be.Tuesday, July 13, 2004, 7/13/2004 12:30:00 AM
Oh my god.. I just read Suzi's blog and found out that one of my sec classmate and her family were caught up in a gas leak and in the hospital right now.. I hope they'll do ok and I'm keepin my fingers crossed. This is tough...
Shout out to Ailian! Who turned the big TWO O on 12 July! Hope you liked the gifts ya.. phew took the whole day of shopping but nevertheless I enjoyed scouting. Thanks for the lunch treat too, delicious nasi lemak and lemon tea. *does the rub belly action*
I didnt go to ChinaBlack after all. Lazy ah and sorry to those whom I made an empty promise. A thousand apologies and I'll make it up!
Going for interviews is both exhilarating and exhausting. And each time, butterflies and caterpillars seem to land on my stomach, causing distraught.. Ok not exactly that horrible but just not nice.. Ugh blabbering. I'm lookin on the bright side, at least I'll learn from each interview right? There's an 2nd interview tml from a company.. supposedly it's good for a Sales & Marketing Executive whose clients include Singnet, Pacific Net right? Comforting..
Huge thanks yous to Suzi and Ros who went to watch the funny, intriguing, i-learnt-a-lesson, provocative, bimbotic MEAN GIRLS. Which I am lazy to give a review but nevertheless 3.75 stars! And the necklace!! Beautiful, colourful and so me. Thank you so much, funky wo de mama.
Suzi, naw it's ok. I am cool yea.. just wondering but now I know the reason ah mei you wen ti! Rossssss.. sorry I couldnt send you off and I was honest heh. Since you're in Aust, can u send me a surfer dude and some sheeps? Could do well with both! You have lots of fun! Man, it will be exhilerating(?)! Take care ya.
Huge thank you to Serene who got me the blazer!! Woot woot very important for the grad ceremony.. And Robinsons has this blazer which cost $29. Nabei!!!!! But it's ok, I am cool. My heart aches like it should be. But thank you so much for the accompanying and glad u enjoy the dinner. Hmmm ko koon kup.
Huge thank you to Aisha who accompanied me for the early morning gruesome foursome(the director interviewed four candidates including me) interview and I got selected! For 2nd interview that's it. Thanks so much!
Huge thank you to Peiwen also for the Giordano shirt, the blusher and this fabolous earrings which I love so much.. We did enjoy the Breekz lunch did we? Ok, no more Hans.
Funny thing, each time I go to Orchard I am bound to meet friends. It ranges from pri sch to poly.. Amazing. I just finished readin Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire twice and it's so fabolous that I can't wait to read Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix( I havent read yet).
I love BLADE movies! Which means I can't wait for BLADE: TRINITY to come out! Wesley my Snipes!
Friday, July 09, 2004, 7/09/2004 01:34:00 AM
Seether - Broken
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away
Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away
Wednesday, July 07, 2004, 7/07/2004 12:04:00 PM
We didnt paint the town red, but we painted the town, all right.
Me and Aisha
Me and Claire
Me and Wayne. (Seriously, I look SPASTIC!!!!!! Where got nice huh huh Sha? Tsk!!!!)
Wayne and Aisha.. hahahha they looked like husband and wife.. hahahahaahahhahahahahahahahha
We had sooooooooo much fun soooooooooo much laughter and soooooooooooo much fun jabbing at one another. At least I did. Claire could only meet us after 4 cuz she had classes so we started off without her first..
I treated Aisha and Wayne to this fabolous treat at.... KFC. It was their request so being the treator, I obliged. Then THEY forced me to treat them Gelato, 99.5% fat free ice cream. OKOK I was kidding, it was my own will. We went shopping, from Zara to Mango and poor Wayne, his bag was heavy with all our books. muhahahhaha. And he had flu.. awwww. But nevertheless, we still continued cuz he had to buy my present. I am such a mean girl. No pun intended.
So we walked from Lucky Plaza to Scotts Plaza to decide should I buy Red Earth lipgloss or Body Shop one. Yes, it was such earth shattering decision. Aiyah, somebody's budget lah.. Shall not name names. Then we kept walkin to and from cutting through CK TANG beauty hall even the staff knew us.. Sheesh.
Eventually, I gave up thinking, for now. Then we played pool! I am soon to become a pool junkie. Remind me never ever to wear v neck or anything low when playing. I was wearin this indian top and the cut is ahem cut low.. So when I bent, I am exposed. SHIT!! But it's ok, it's only Wayne. I was painfully aware when I bent. Ugh... again, it's ok at least I have boobs. *cringes at thought*
Claire came.. I asked her come so that she could give Wayne the Night Safari photos and man those photos were hahahahhahahahahaha all him. Kk. I couldnt see the bat!! And cause I thought she will be playing with us.. But she didnt want.. soooo 2 of us played still, causing me to be the loser, AGAIN. I seriously need to brush up. Claire, I'll give you a treat soon yea..and yes we all were wacked. Heh
So we walked ard Far East Plaza, 3 girls in tow and 1 very miserable boy with a heavy bag. Shoppin was fun! Actually not very when I have no idea what to buy.. We then went to eat at Ya Kun with blunders all the way, such slapstick, such laughter. Saw Alan.. I was tad surprised when he ruffled me at my hair.. hmm. A bit gay ah but hahahahha ok.
Finally of finally, Wayne bought me a Body Shop lipgloss. I like it, really. Hmm my lips smell mango peachy. I sound cheesy. Head on to Topshop but the earrings I wanted were defected then I saw Faizal! He's the Malay guy in my sec class and we saw each other and we went EHHHHH. He didnt remember my name apparently. I knew his name dammit. Ah, like a bit mat.. Even in the train, we kept laughing.
Dinner was fab, with japanese buffet all around. But I felt a bit bloated after only the 1st round..darn and yes I took a trip to the toliet. *clears throat* There was this tv hanging and they were showing karoake songs then my dad and mom were singing along.. My dad's chinese is bad so he kept singing the last 2 words then we kept laughing laughing non stop. I think I laughed so much yesterday that I could feel my stomach muscles forming.. woohoo.
Thank you to my family for the dinner and all. I love you all!
Thank you Aisha, Wayne and Claire for the gifts and the time, laughter and fun spent. I'll never forget. Let's repeat on Aisha's bdae! Thanks for the shirt( which I tried and love it!), lipgloss and the vouchers. Thank you so much!
Thank you Serene, Peiwen, Ailian for your wishes. Ahem!! Presents. heheh kidddinnnnn
Thank you Sylvia, Eugene, ZhouJing, Jingyi, Hari, Seha, Ian(psst, hope ur doing ok after ur extraction), Angeline and Janice, Bryan, Nurul(yes she wished me), Ross and Suzi(for literally being the last) for all your wishes!!!!
Thank you all..
World Peace. *does the peace thingy*
Tuesday, July 06, 2004, 7/06/2004 01:29:00 AM
Woohoo!! I have hit the big TWO O!! It feels weird to be this hyper at 1 plus in the morning but hey I am officially 20. Shameless but I like..
Gonna paint the town red with Aisha, Wayne and Claire and fabolous dinner at night with Mom, Dad and Bro. Can't wait!! Pics..comin right up.
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Poof.
Sunday, July 04, 2004, 7/04/2004 01:57:00 PM
First of all, a shout out to Peiwen who hit the big TWO O on 30 june! Happy Belated Birthday! I gave her this coin pouch, earrings and a mag. Actually, we went out and I paid for all her stuff. I really dont know what to buy for presents anymore..
Second, what is up with all the China women hawking around in the neighbourhoods? And what is up with all the Singaporean men hawking around, LOOKIN for China women? Not enough sex and money to satisfy all? It's in the newspapers everywhere.. Sheesh, get a grip man, Singapore.
The Blackout 2004. You know what, I like when it occured. At least it taught us something, like to appreciate the small stuff when there's not electricity. Sure, Singapore may be a developed country BUT why can't the people accept that it's not perfect?
Ah never mind me, it's just bitchin.
Anyway, I feel like I am wasting earth's resources and my mom's like scrutinizing me. Look, are you makin me feel better that I am jobless? You think I never find work issit? I am just doing my part in W-A-I-T-I-N-G. I don't like the feeling at all. This sucks. Hit me baby one more time..
This is a invitation to all: ChinaBlack Wed night? Mass birthday celebrations! Contact me yea.. Come come all.
Friday, July 02, 2004, 7/02/2004 11:19:00 AM
Heard of THE CURSE OF THE BLACK PEARL? Then you should've hear THE CURSE OF THE INTERVIEW. Naw, just kiddin. I made up the latter.
I spilled ice-cream on my shirt and soles of my blardy heels came off. This happens every single time when I have an interview. Why? Why? It also happened the other time too with the exact replication. I can't traverse in heels, bummer. To save my feet from bad shoes, I bought a Charles and Keith informal and formal sandals. Woohoo!! They looked really good on me, shameless I say. My first pair..wow.
Goin out with Syl has always been a blast, so we laughed and laughed. There was this part when there's this trasvertite(??) walk past. I am not prejudiced, sexist, or racist.. Just that he/she dressed himself/herself like Hsu Chun Mei then the hair stickin out in one place. It was just funny. Okay, fine.
Thanks Hari for playin pool with me, even though I suck at Yahoo and in real life. Hahaha. I am a great snooker, i tell ya. Don be shy, yea. You can tell me anyting. *winks*
Man.. hope I get a job pretty soon. This is so random. poof. Rossss we must meet one day leh!!!!!