"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother-fucker's reflection."
you can let the sun in
Six billion smaller worlds on the bigger one.
Shoe salesmen and short-order cooks who look boring from the outside
- some have weirder lives than you.
Six billion stories, every one an epic,
full of tragedy and triumph,
good and evil,
despair and hope.
You and me - we aren’t so special, bro.
you can say something
you can enrich your mind
Adeline
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
Alvin
Angeline
Cashew
Dogget
Dionnie
Faith
Ian
Janice
Jas Cheng
Jing
Kitty
Marcus A.C
Natasha
Skye
Spanky
Suzy
Yubo
ZhiQuan
you can read me again and again
you can thank them
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Sunday, July 31, 2005, 7/31/2005 01:58:00 AM
i cried when boone died. 5 more eps to the finale?!!!!!!! nothing can pry me away from next sat.
Season 2 is being shown in the states already. quick quick when can AXN or CH 5 air?
TV Junkie alert!! I can't get LOST. woohoo.
so pwetty.
so hamsome
i love my teevee and AXN.
Am goin on a virgin trip with friend to Malaysia!! bye.
Thursday, July 28, 2005, 7/28/2005 09:43:00 PM
i am done replacing my cards. actually, not really. my condo card isn't replaced yet and yes, i lack the chicken guts to tell my mom. i am still afraid after all, like a girl who isnt a woman, not yet a girl.i should really stop referring to that song.
i was playing at the arcade the other day, woohoo. that's right, the ARCADE. And the moment i stepped in, sudden flashback where i turned 15 and everything new is old again. of course it's after all a flashback and everything old is new again. drums i played, characters that never existed i shoot. anyway it was probably in the arcade where i lost them. oh bugger. i'll probably never step into one again.
life's in circles. i always remember this saying "always step out of your comfort zone and into the learning zone".
i guess i am not moving anywhere then.
i can't stop listening to these songs:
"black eyed peas - don't lie"
"james blunt - you're beautiful"
"lucie silvas - what you're made of"
"audioslave - doesn't remind me"
"fall out boy - sugar, we're goin down"
"switchfoot - meant to live (acoustic)"
"yellowcard - only one (acoustic)"
told you life's in circles. i should probably do something crazy.
Monday, July 25, 2005, 7/25/2005 01:02:00 AM
I HAVE LOST THE DEAREST CARDS TO ME :
1) ATM
2) EZ LINK (it's my poly bus pass with my figgin face on it. can't believe just a
year after i grad, i fucking lost it. I fucking had it for 3 years.
great.)
3) CASH CARD (it's 3 bucks worth)
4) CONDO CARD
May the person who took it after I lost it return my belongings please. If not. I hope the person suffers.
Anyway isn't ir ironic when today i was discussing bout the loss of things to my family and i found a wallet today and gave to the authorities? DAMMIT. DAMMIT. DAMMIT. ISN'T IT JUST IRONIC AND CONTRADICTING. tsk.
I am a little pissed at myself. I didnt tell my parents thus swift action is needed to be taken so that they don't suspect a thing. Sneaky but a woman's gotta do what's a woman gotta do.
Anyway, i'm still goin WTF WTF WTF WTF bout my loss.
Till then, a happy post can wait.
Saturday, July 23, 2005, 7/23/2005 07:20:00 PM
7/23/2005 12:19:00 AM
hello.for those who are concerned, thank you, I am doing fine now. I am practising what I am preaching which means the most monotonous voice i can master and say thanks and bye real fast before she can answer and just slam the phone down. I just love it when I do that.
I didnt get picked!!!!!!! dammit. u howard.
Imagine 5 years of not having a proper conversation with a good bud and to relieve it after, man it was good. Ecs, you just pleasantly surprised me. :B And wad fears thinkin that i can't recognize you and u can't recognize me. Please. Chey like real, scarly yesterday was only my facade. Haha. not farny i know. Anyway I did enjoy the total hang out. 2 weeks from now. Start counting and gossiping.
Momo me. Free drinks free entry. That was the shortest dance I ever had. Hahahahah pretty hilarious too. a couple of moves we tried like: "come on people. do the shuffle now left right right left""put ur hands up and wiggle" Anyway it was all in good fun. Am really glad that you liked the bag and the earrings. happy -- belated birthday. ok we hang soon too.
.Viv!! Dont be pissed ya. Things will turn out all right. Be cool.
You know, today Emily was like wearing this super super short shorts covered with a skirt. uh geddit? Then she was wearing this pair of sneakers and the whole outfit made her looked awfully young. So young that I felt guilty of bitching bout her. BUT. That feeling faded away before you could say Waraku!
Speaking of Waraku. Go to this place when you have an enormous appetite. This place serves enormous servings with good quality. My weight got heavier and my pocket got lighter. Halluejah!
so random. so need sleep.
okay bye.
Monday, July 18, 2005, 7/18/2005 10:52:00 PM
Dear Christine Seow of a certain agency in Singapore,First of all, I want to pat you on your back on making my worst work day so far. I never had so much trouble with any of the agencies that I am in charge of except YOU. From the sound of your voice, you are always brash, harsh and think you are ol so mighty. Whenever I tried to reason out with you, you always give me the "dont argue with me, you know i am right" voice. Let me tell you, you old fuckin hag. You irritate me to death and there is no more that I wish you would just retire and vanish from the face of the earth. Nobody on earth will miss you. Certainly not my colleagues. Whom they told me tales of horror from YOU. you fucking bitch. Even my boss hates you. Hates your voice, your authority. OH WAIT. Your thinking of i am always right authority. Whenever I dont understand your reasons, I will ask and you'll interrupt with your "oh u stupid fool u dont understand" voice, making me feel like an idiot for asking. Well Christine, u fuckhole, I kinda hold the power of where your spots are goin to run, can you say hello to 6am spots. Take today, after non stop calls between 15 mins and you irritated me, I couldn't pick your call because I am afraid I might scream at you. How dare you ask "What happened to me" I was trying to control my anger so badly that you wouldnt want to come near me. Btw, even my big boss hates you. They did bend some rules, just because to shut u up and hope to stop your frequent calls. And oh please stop calling me every fuckin 10 mins just to check your bookings, god, ur such a nag and hag. Whenever i tried to reason, u put me down. One day Christine, I hope u will be fired in the most nastiest way. Even YOUR colleagues don't like you. Always argumentative they say. Wad? U can't be a lawyer? Or always a loser in debates? Or you're just a old haggard bully? Tell me and I hope nobody will ever help. You make me such a bitter impression about you that even the greatest good can't make me feel a little better on you. You old shithead. You stiff prick. Guess wad still? Even SPH people hates you. Even your clients hate you. How did you rise to become such an executive post anyway? I bet u nag your way through. If you do ever quit and decide to join any company, god bless them and certainly the people who are gonna be dealing with you. In a way, I think it's my downright luck to ever interact you. You suck, you piece of shit. Whenever I do talk to you, I am trying my damn hardest not to slam the phone down. If ever one day my boss comes to me, reprimanding me on how my attitude should change towards you, I will gladly accept the reprimand but i will never apologize to you. Do u think I am bitter in writing this post? Yes I am but I am not goin to let you bring me down. I will still do my work but towards you, it will be reverted back to you in the ugliest handwriting that I will come up with and the most subtle rudest email. I hope someday, someone will bring you down and peace will reign. Till the day comes, fuck you.
One sidenote: Emily, could u please please please stop saying hi and bye to everyone I said hi and bye to? What are you trying to do? I am sure it was targeted at me but you just had to poke your fuckin nose into whatever I do. Why?!!!! It's just pissing me off. And your hp tone, yes the latest ooh Initial D sound, it SUCKED. It just sounded wrong the way it came out and has this buzzin irritating sound. Even cars screeched a nicer sound. Just stop, just stop trying to act friendly with everybody that I am close with. And stop greeting me good morning, never am perky in the morning. fuck.
With the most sincere pissed off mode I am feeling now to the 2 ladies,
Jasmine
Saturday, July 16, 2005, 7/16/2005 05:37:00 PM
Man, I just went for a marathon today and I considered it one of the best. Not that I have been to many though.Yes!! I sat in front of my teeeveee and watched LOST marathon. 5 eps!!! BACK TO BACK!! I was like on a freaking high man. Thanks AXN for u made my day and let me catch up. At least I wasn't LOST on it though. So exciting! Full of suspense! So nice! Must....go...home... on.... time...every....Thursday.... I cannot catch up on OC 2 la. Cannot make it.
When you walked in Joo Chiat Road at 2am and being female, you can't help it but being NOTICED BY THE POLICE. Yes hello, Joo Chiat road was for a while known as a sleazy place because of hookers but the residents decided to petition and blah blah, less hooks, more crooks. No la am kidding bout the last part. Anyway police were like checking me out (sidetrack: DO I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING HOOKER FOR GOD'S SAKE? I WAS WEARING JEANS AND A DECENT TOP) and I got a little freaked out. Cannot issit. Anyway pool's good.
Emily's still as annoying as ever. Ayeeee i cannot stand her la. I can't bring myself to make eye contact with her. lol. Just can't. She also have this kind of smell about her, it ain't body odour just this smell. Aiyah as if i go sniffing ard her all day. Anyway more office gossip. We have this new girl called Mylene, same age as me. And I think Emily's like jealous of her. lol. I tell u it's like so high schoooll!! But it's damn farny. Anyway I have no chance to eat with Mylene yet cuz as long as Emily eats with them, nah. I will lose appetite. For pete's sake, I was typing an email the other time and suddenly Emily went "Can send me that format of the mail?" I was like wat the fark are u looking man. So I turned and scolded her wat the fark. NO LA!! I just turned and said u can copy from else where wat. The point was SHE WAS LOOKING AT MY PC. MY PC. What the hell happened to privacy? That bitch. If she happened to look at my pc while I am typing anything bout her, that would be great. I coudn't give a flying shit can.
Btw, I signed up for something leh. Hope I do get picked.
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Thanks.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005, 7/12/2005 08:37:00 PM
How?!! For a while I thought I lost my momento to blog. okok let's get down and dirty.Thank you each and everyone of you who came to the party of the year. Wad? It wasnt? I dont care, I still thought that my party went well. Hello, it was bollywood style.
Let's shimmy.
1) Mom. Dad. and Marcus : I doubt they read this but I would like to thank them from the bottom of my heart who helped me in everything in the 2 decades and 1 year of my life. (wah lau eh 2 decades already?!!!!!!) sheesh. Thanks Mom for the bollywood outfit, the catering food, the cake, the jewellery, the nags. Yes my party was being planned 3 weeks ago before the day itself. I couldnt care less bout the party but my mom wouldnt allow me. Every morning she goes : How many people coming? How many people u invite? Wat food u want? And the list goes on. However, I am forced to take my words back because I got so freaked out on the day itself, I cleaned my house from ceiling to floor and washed 3 toliets. When it came to the party, I was pooped but I still acted like the gracious hostess. (haha. don laugh)
2) My childhood friends: Thanks so much for coming! Imagine wad? 21 years already. We grew up together and now we are still in touch. Amazing wazing. Syl! We r both women now. tsk tsk. Gene, well u gotta grow up kiddo. (heh kidding)Ur birthday also havent come right. Isnt it funny when I would never knew you would know ugly motherfcker Wilfred. Please, don pardon me. And Huiling, she's still as annoying as ever. . Les, so nice to meet you again and you look great with the new glasses. Thanks for coming all and the gifts. Tour, soon? $$
3) My pri sch friends : The 2nd longest friends I ever knew. Serene, you are still my original fried chicken forever. "Do i look i freaking care?" I will be here for you no matter what. Yes I am still appalled. But please do let me be in the loop. No gay(that kind of gay) thoughts please. lol. Yiwen, thanks for taking the effort to come even though u had another party. Really appreciated it, err i will replay the message that u kept hidden in the soft toy. a bit scary but yes. touching. Yubo, thanks for coming too even though u had camp!! u were red all over, but it gave u a nice tan. hehehe. Really was thankful for coming even, no worries I know how exactly u feel when u want to sleep when u can't. Thanks for being friends and may we be in touch. cliche, yes?
4) My sec sch friends : Sigh. the times of my life. Peiwen, thanks for coming. Thanks for being there up and down. Camera time!! Thanks for everything, really. Ailian, wah. fond hugs. tsk tsk cannot afford ah but hope u liked ur present. Thanks for everything, the complaints the bitching the whining. Hope ur happy. Zhoujing, hahahaha thanks for the "tube". Fabolously juicy. The letter was touching too. 8 years and counting. Thanks ya for the trips. "Hi, are u shocked that i asked for ur name"? hehe. momo me. Suzi, cast keper. But thanks really ah for coming despite ur complaints, wah very far leh knnccb. and the list goes on. At least ur close to my theme. I like the photos though. CAST KEPER. Diana n haqeem, sorry bout the "loss" of directions. hahahah but quite funny la. Thanks for coming and sorry i didnt talk to u much. ahem ahem next invite. :B
5) My poly friends : the VIPs of the night. Yeap, last to arrive and first to leave. How my heart breaks. But nevertheless. Ian, thanks for coming. Hope army is treating u well and u do look nice with the hair and all. Wayne and Huibin, thanks too despite saying I look lighter with the punjabi suit. Must be I all covered up to look a FEW POUNDS lighter. tsk tsk. Will u be the 5 people I meet in heaven? heh. get the drift. Aisha and Sand, sigh was disappointed that u all couldnt came. But thanks for the thought. Hang soon.
6) My relatives and cousins : Thanks for coming. Cheers. $$$$$$$$$ richer. heheheheh
7) My colleagues : Thanks everybody who turned up including my boss. My dad was like drunk and he kept pouring them wine. LIke drink more drink more. I was like wat the fuck, dude, man they are my colleagues. Dont keep hanging out wit them?!! It was just ugh. Emily was there. -smirks- Ahh now everybody got to see Emily. the strange one. hehe.
7) To all those I couldnt remember/ couldnt come / last min backed out / never give me gifts (hoho) : errr ur in my thoughts. evil or good, i decide. Thanks for everyone who smsed me!! See?! Ur not forgotten as long as u know who u are. -check ur conscience- :B
Thanks for everything, the company, the gifts. I am so grown up right now I could have sex outright. JUST KIDDING. geez, just see ur face man.
Sigh. so many things. so many responsibilities. so many matters.
You think you know, you have no idea.
I just want to hang loose like footloose.
Sunday, July 10, 2005, 7/10/2005 11:58:00 PM
let me try something.hello ah people. sorry ah so long havent blogz, been busy la. U know what can liao.. then shopping here shopping there. wah so busy thats' why havent blogz. hope ur doing okay k... hehe.... hope u will still continue reading okayz.... lol...hahaz..
ok that's the end of trying something new. errr just called it being spontaneous. hohooho.
i hear my bed calling me. do trust for, i will update soon.
Please hold while i connect ur request -beeps-
Friday, July 01, 2005, 7/01/2005 01:39:00 PM
Gavin Degraw - Follow ThroughOh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I‘m holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
And what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow
Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?